number hundred-and-ninety-eight

I am feeling terrible, really terrible.

I am having the time of the month when I want to get a good rest today and hang out with my best buddies but I just had to have cramps. This is not happening to me but it did.

I really want a big teddy bear. Teddy bear are nice, they are light brown in color and are huggable. Some are white in color but i prefer the brown in color ones.

Whines.

Bye.

number hundred-and-ninty-seven

Hello.
I think I like blogging quite a bit.
The reason being might be that it gives me reason to type on the keyboard.

I like typing on the keyboard, it's always something that makes me feel quite comfortable in. It is like singing to me, just that singing is something I don't think I can stop doing but typing on the keyboard is just something i like, not love.

Currently sitting in my INP class now. My elective classes have been great but definitely not the best. I can accept whatever I am doing but I am not sure if this is what I am going to do when I step out of Temasek Poly and seriously start my own journey in life. I mean, I'm not as young as I think I am or as how the adults deduce me as. There are things I should be worrying about.

Oh well, I am not sure.

number hundred and ninety-six

Well, hello. It's an understatement to say that it had been a long while since I came here because.. the last time I blogged here was during september, last year. Now that is way more than long while, it was 365++ days ago since I last blog here so it's effing long ago.

Life have been great to me, I suppose. I am still scraping through school, though sometimes barely.
My best friends are still around me, we still fool around a lot and laugh like hyenas without a care about the public(maybe just me).
I have lost some friends, gain back a few.
I still fight with my family members over the most trivial things, but we get back together again by the end of a drama serial.

I suppose life have been treating me well, yes.

Yet, I believe I have changed too. I would like to believe that I have changed for the better though I think I judge people more than I used to.

..okay, maybe I did not change for the better.

I might not be a perfectionist, but that doesn't stop me from trying to look for perfection in the certain details of my own life so I will be less imperfect. I can change things about myself, but it often take more effort to place everything in action then verbal. I often say that I should keep an open mind about the people around me, but I tend to end up thinking secretly that 'hey, I have a gut feeling that they are talking about me, seriously, and it might not be a good thing'. It can be quite a burden because, really, they might not have been talking about me but with my overly sensitive sense, they will really end up talking about me.

Twitter, have been the thing that was introduced to me by Claudine and Poh Yock during march last year.
I remember creating it together with the both of them at Claudine's aunt's house. The twitter name 'sehMEEc' was created then by Claudine who said that it sounds like 'sammie C' and everyone agreed to it. I would like to think that twitter have been the cause of all 'evil' because.. the indirect bitching that I have learn to pick up over the stretch of the couple of months, wasn't something that I think I should be proud of. In fact, I think I should be really ashamed of such behavior I have display because, it's something really immature and I am already close to 20. Yet again, if I had let all this infuse into my behavior, I should be questioning my own morals and personality instead of blaming people.

I think I can still fix that before it turns ugly. I mean, on the bright side, at least I know there is something wrong and I am going to rectify it, with all that I can.

I hope I can be the adult in future that I would not regret being. Life is starting, though it's okay to make mistakes and be sure not to err again, I don't want to have the ugly mark in my life that I will cringe when I am old and winkled, looking back at the things I do.

Well, time to work hard.
Good luck Sam.

number hundred-and-ninety-five.

I really have to say this but I have no idea how long have I not come back here to have a look at this blog already. Somehow in a way or another, I miss blogging here. Tumblr is fun but it lost it purpose when people began reading it and change my words. But I am over it and I have met more people and became happier..in a way or another.

Its holiday now. And I'm wasting my youth away. its not exactly like my youth anymore since the fact that I have already graduated from secondary school for the past year and graduation from secondary school is almost equvient to graduation from high school in those country who has high school and mid school and all those extra terms here and there that I doubt I could understand. Maybe the only different is that all we ever got is a O level cert whereas they have a diploma. They could even start working now with that diploma cert. Well, maybe the fact that their college entrance exam is hell and poly in singapore just have to make sure you have a good O level cert and you can land in whatsoever course that you are interested in. Well, even Junior Colleges that offer you like an almost direct entrance into university if you scrap a handful of good A level results. Yet, in the overall end, examination kills our brains.

I was watching Mr Brain again earlier and it was said that normal human being use up to only 5% of our brain capacity. So if to say that those normal genius uses 10% of their brain capacity, then who uses up to 100% of their brain capacity? I suppose only God does. Since he is the man who created us, he uses every part of his body to the fullest capacity right? That makes him almighty. Just wondering, how many percentage of my brain capacity protential am I using? Maybe less than five percent since I'm sitting down here wasting my life away and my skin cell to detoriate on its own. How awesome.

Ciao..or rather since I am so into Japanese-pop instead of Korean-pop(thanks to those fans who never fails to amaze me with their new found vile in going after idols and killing those other fans with their languages be it in vebal-wise or body-wise), I should just say this.

Owari.
Ja-ne.

number hundred-and-ninety-four.

Seen it?
Yusuke Yamamoto says "LOVE"
Am I not suppose to spazz at him? He is soooo cute.
Four years older than me only okay!!HAH~!

number hundred-and...whatsoeverthenumberis.

I'm at my new home now, blogging.
I actually didn't really want to use my tumblr at this very moment since its going to be for my fandoms and all so i'm rather on the clearing out of my blog. This is going to go on the list of private blog. The very first private blog i ever had so i'm rather fine with it.
Maybe I may blog some fandom here too. Like my secret slash of extra bias who is climbing up the list of my favourites and non-favourites.An example?Yamada Ryosuke, my secret bias.

one hundred-and-ninety-two.

I think i shall try blogging at both end. its a little redundent and all but nevermind, i like doing extra work.

i'm goner. presentation tomorrow.can't really remember much but hope can make it.

ciao.