nothing,yet.

number hundred-and-ninety-eight

2011-11-19T12:58:00.001+08:00

I am feeling terrible, really terrible.

I am having the time of the month when I want to get a good rest today and hang out with my best buddies but I just had to have cramps. This is not happening to me but it did.

I really want a big teddy bear. Teddy bear are nice, they are light brown in color and are huggable. Some are white in color but i prefer the brown in color ones.

Whines.

Bye.

number hundred-and-ninty-seven

2011-11-15T13:18:00.001+08:00

Hello.
I think I like blogging quite a bit.
The reason being might be that it gives me reason to type on the keyboard.

I like typing on the keyboard, it's always something that makes me feel quite comfortable in. It is like singing to me, just that singing is something I don't think I can stop doing but typing on the keyboard is just something i like, not love.

Currently sitting in my INP class now. My elective classes have been great but definitely not the best. I can accept whatever I am doing but I am not sure if this is what I am going to do when I step out of Temasek Poly and seriously start my own journey in life. I mean, I'm not as young as I think I am or as how the adults deduce me as. There are things I should be worrying about.

Oh well, I am not sure.

number hundred and ninety-six

2011-11-13T13:18:00.001+08:00

Well, hello. It's an understatement to say that it had been a long while since I came here because.. the last time I blogged here was during september, last year. Now that is way more than long while, it was 365++ days ago since I last blog here so it's effing long ago.

Life have been great to me, I suppose. I am still scraping through school, though sometimes barely.
My best friends are still around me, we still fool around a lot and laugh like hyenas without a care about the public(maybe just me).
I have lost some friends, gain back a few.
I still fight with my family members over the most trivial things, but we get back together again by the end of a drama serial.

I suppose life have been treating me well, yes.

Yet, I believe I have changed too. I would like to believe that I have changed for the better though I think I judge people more than I used to.

..okay, maybe I did not change for the better.

I might not be a perfectionist, but that doesn't stop me from trying to look for perfection in the certain details of my own life so I will be less imperfect. I can change things about myself, but it often take more effort to place everything in action then verbal. I often say that I should keep an open mind about the people around me, but I tend to end up thinking secretly that 'hey, I have a gut feeling that they are talking about me, seriously, and it might not be a good thing'. It can be quite a burden because, really, they might not have been talking about me but with my overly sensitive sense, they will really end up talking about me.

Twitter, have been the thing that was introduced to me by Claudine and Poh Yock during march last year.
I remember creating it together with the both of them at Claudine's aunt's house. The twitter name 'sehMEEc' was created then by Claudine who said that it sounds like 'sammie C' and everyone agreed to it. I would like to think that twitter have been the cause of all 'evil' because.. the indirect bitching that I have learn to pick up over the stretch of the couple of months, wasn't something that I think I should be proud of. In fact, I think I should be really ashamed of such behavior I have display because, it's something really immature and I am already close to 20. Yet again, if I had let all this infuse into my behavior, I should be questioning my own morals and personality instead of blaming people.

I think I can still fix that before it turns ugly. I mean, on the bright side, at least I know there is something wrong and I am going to rectify it, with all that I can.

I hope I can be the adult in future that I would not regret being. Life is starting, though it's okay to make mistakes and be sure not to err again, I don't want to have the ugly mark in my life that I will cringe when I am old and winkled, looking back at the things I do.

Well, time to work hard.
Good luck Sam.

number hundred-and-ninety-five.

2010-09-20T01:09:00.000+08:00

I really have to say this but I have no idea how long have I not come back here to have a look at this blog already. Somehow in a way or another, I miss blogging here. Tumblr is fun but it lost it purpose when people began reading it and change my words. But I am over it and I have met more people and became happier..in a way or another.

Its holiday now. And I'm wasting my youth away. its not exactly like my youth anymore since the fact that I have already graduated from secondary school for the past year and graduation from secondary school is almost equvient to graduation from high school in those country who has high school and mid school and all those extra terms here and there that I doubt I could understand. Maybe the only different is that all we ever got is a O level cert whereas they have a diploma. They could even start working now with that diploma cert. Well, maybe the fact that their college entrance exam is hell and poly in singapore just have to make sure you have a good O level cert and you can land in whatsoever course that you are interested in. Well, even Junior Colleges that offer you like an almost direct entrance into university if you scrap a handful of good A level results. Yet, in the overall end, examination kills our brains.

I was watching Mr Brain again earlier and it was said that normal human being use up to only 5% of our brain capacity. So if to say that those normal genius uses 10% of their brain capacity, then who uses up to 100% of their brain capacity? I suppose only God does. Since he is the man who created us, he uses every part of his body to the fullest capacity right? That makes him almighty. Just wondering, how many percentage of my brain capacity protential am I using? Maybe less than five percent since I'm sitting down here wasting my life away and my skin cell to detoriate on its own. How awesome.

Ciao..or rather since I am so into Japanese-pop instead of Korean-pop(thanks to those fans who never fails to amaze me with their new found vile in going after idols and killing those other fans with their languages be it in vebal-wise or body-wise), I should just say this.

Owari.
Ja-ne.

number hundred-and-ninety-four.

2010-08-08T03:35:00.000+08:00

Seen it?
Yusuke Yamamoto says "LOVE"
Am I not suppose to spazz at him? He is soooo cute.
Four years older than me only okay!!HAH~!

number hundred-and...whatsoeverthenumberis.

2010-08-07T13:12:00.002+08:00

I'm at my new home now, blogging.
I actually didn't really want to use my tumblr at this very moment since its going to be for my fandoms and all so i'm rather on the clearing out of my blog. This is going to go on the list of private blog. The very first private blog i ever had so i'm rather fine with it.
Maybe I may blog some fandom here too. Like my secret slash of extra bias who is climbing up the list of my favourites and non-favourites.An example?Yamada Ryosuke, my secret bias.

one hundred-and-ninety-two.

2010-07-21T01:57:00.000+08:00

I think i shall try blogging at both end. its a little redundent and all but nevermind, i like doing extra work.

i'm goner. presentation tomorrow.can't really remember much but hope can make it.

ciao.

hundred-and-ninty-one.

2010-07-17T01:22:00.000+08:00

hello,i'm back again.
just wondering, did anyone miss me here instead of tumblr?
but then..who reads my blog. oh well.
i know some are reading my blog for information.
why come and tell me about how i should not keep everything to myself and should like i'm the one bitching about them when they started the whole fisaco? they make me look like the bitch instead.
thats why thats the irony of human. never admit to their own mistakes.
pff.

number hundred-and-ninety.

2010-05-15T23:48:00.002+08:00

Hello there.
I,again,gotten myself another blog..again.
Not really another blogger,but a tumblr.
Maybe I was just being lame since i got nothing better to do at the moment.
Try going if you want,though i have nothing there.

my tumblr

ciaos.

number hundred-and-eighty-nine.

2010-05-13T14:03:00.000+08:00

playing monopoly deal now.
HAHAHA.
love it.

james is super gay.his laughter ahhhhh..

number hundred-and-eighty-eight.

2010-05-12T22:38:00.000+08:00

i know this is pure random.
but i think they ain't that bad now.
they first song gave me a little shock back then.
what friday,saturday,sunday.
back then was really hard to appreciate that song though.
everytime i listen to it,just make me want to laugh.
but i really like the maknae,dongjun.
then the leader junyoung because he looked like yoochunnie at first.
but he has his own distinct characters and features that make him different and i like him.
yah.
the rest..i have no much impression about them though.
no offence to their fans.
looking at all day mv now,
really,not bad.

number hundred-and-eighty-seven.

2010-05-11T16:41:00.000+08:00

hello there.
james is staring.
...
he is still staring..
welll..bye.
i want to go homeeeeeeee
later i need to go home.
i really want to go for choir.
but its forbidden for me now at the moment.
my mother is worried.
she is so scared that i don't do my homework.
no time mannnnnnnn.
sian.
i got WDS project.
haven't do.
i got VDT homework
haven't do
i got cmaths tutorial TOMORROW
haven't do
.
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iamscrewediamscrewediamscrewed..

number hundred and thirty-six.

2010-05-09T18:31:00.000+08:00

Well hello.
Don't you think that it was really a bad weather today?
Rain pouring endlessly,and today is mother's day.
I had to say this first,happy mother's day.
I love you mummy.

Tomorrow is school again.
Talking about monday blues all the time.
Mine definitely work well for me since monday is the longest day.
I have Art and i have not done my work yet.
Does it remind anyone the days in art class in KC?
The days where a particular J would look as haunting as ever,baring his teeth and oh-so-dramatic ways to make sure you do your work.
I remember he used to call me all those silly nicknames to rush me through my work.
"Miss chan,are you waiting for the sky to drop before you finish your work?"
"Auntie chan,stop talking and do your work!"
"Miss chan,finish that sketch you have been doing within five minutes and show me or else I'll tear it up.I'll countdown the time with my timer on my phone so start..NOW!"

..Oh how much I really,really am tempted to pull that sony ericsson phone out of his palm and throw it out of the window or the spiral stairs just steps away.But now that I'm here,sitting at the corner in my room,I realise how much I really want to thank him for those constant irritation he had caused to me back then.I might not even have the motivation to do well in my art or improve like how I am now,being able to grasp the techniques to doing my drawings now,even if its just fundamentals,and understanding what I really want to be like.
Thank you very very much,Mr J for being a bitch at times to me in school.
You really truely save my life a lot back then.
Thanks to you and everyone in Art Class'09,you guys truely make my day well through the hectic schdules and routine in KC lass year.

I wouldn't not forget the other teachers,Ms C,Ms T and all..
Biology wouldn't been something I would have thought I might pass if you hadn't been the teacher who taught me.Sorry I never seem to understand transpirational pull in plants and which enzymes break down what.You had been the most patient teacher with us that you could even crack Clara's brain with biology to let her get an A.You are truely amazing.

English hasn't been something I was good at since young.Yet,I was able to speak well now and notice the grammars more acurately,no doubtly all your effort.Sorry that I never seem to understand back then what was the proper usage over 'was' and 'were'.I definitely do understand well now,thank you very much.You are awesome,even if you don't believe you are godly in a way or another.

I found this draft lying around on my blogger post.
The days when everyone strive to do their art but I never remembered to post up.
I might post the video back then when we were scrubbing the sink.It was amazing,really.
Mariette!Do you want it?HAHAHA~!

13th to 14th August 2009
Can I just say that I believe that I had a 'wonderful' time of the week.
To begin with,I think I've done like around more than 24hours worth of art this week already.
The Art room seem to turn into my second house in school.tsktsk.
Had art camp yesterday till this morning.It was fun though it felt like a concentration camp.
Its serious!I'm not joking,its really like a concentration camp there.
Everyone in the art room are like almost tearing hair out painting our canvas.
Marietta keep complaining that her canvas look like cheese-cake canvas(which i think it looks cute).

I really think this year's art is really..memorable.

I think I've done all sorts of thing because of Art,seriously.

Pulling all nighters for camp doing art.

But i think the best was on thursday when Annabel and I stay back after school for art.

Its really funny you know.

I remember we both said that we will be staying back after school to do art.

I meant,there is night study that day so..might not let it go to waste isn't it?

HAHAHAHAHA.

So we stayed after school that day till 9pm doing art.

But with Annabel,we both had to go through some 'trouble' before getting set up and doing art.But I'm not complaining you know?Its really the process that I love.Yes,Annabel I love you okay?Thats only to pacify you if you ever going to read my blog.Back to what the 'trouble' was,actually..it was really nothing.I just wanted to make a mountain out of a mole hill.HAHA.It was just the moveable stand where we both place our art box,water,paints,platelets and whatsoever that we have.We both did the moving once when I arrive at the art room at 2:20pm on thursday,seeing that we literately have no space at Art room two which is upstairs.Staying downstairs to paint makes life so way easier.We have like soo much more spaces than we had before at art room two where we keep knocking elbows and screaming cuss since we are so cramped up there.

Moving down all our things,Jasmine and Marietta join in as well.Then Annabel got a little insane.I just don't understand why but she happen to have this crazy obssession with teletubbies.Singing that song to kill everyone's ears with it.

I became Dipsy.It was weird,being the green monster and all.
I truely pity Mariette,she was thinky-winky.But she fit the role well,yes.
Both Mariette and Jasmine left at 6:00pm,calling the end of the day.
Mariette had to run of for tution at 7:30pm whereas Jasmine had to run of because her brother wouldn't stop calling her for a game of badminton back at home.
Annabel and I packed up at 6:30pm since the auntie keep coming in to complain that we are hogging the place and she can't locked it.Both of us huff and puff our way to the gallery where we paint there till the end of night study.Believe me,after that day,we had to realise one fact.The lighting there at the gallery sucks.We can barely tell what the heck we had been painting and all.The day was a little wasted though,we did nothing much other than painting the same spot that we both thought we did rather badly in.
The second fact we realise after that was that staying back was easy,the leaving was hard.We did not tell them that we will be staying back,they do not have any clue that we had been upstairs painting all the while.We cleared up and went to the gate,just to realise that we need to sign out to leave the place.The only thing that we can do was to dump over bag over the gate and climb through.First hand experience was of course,amazing.Annabel climbed over swiftly,she was experience in this since every St. John camp had her clique and her to climb over the gate to go to the shop for late-night snacks.It was my first time doing this.Awkward was be the way to describe it.I climb over,grabing my bag,laughing with Annabel with my adrenline rush high then noticing that there was a couple that look like ghost opposite school staring at us like we were some unknown aliens.That night I slept late,adrenline results in sleep loss all the time.

The next day was the art camp.
It was cool,really.
Annabel made a fool out of herself at times but we really enjoyed ourselves really lot.
But I really felt screwed when I reached home,really.
Yet,at the end of the day,I'm glad to say this at times, I love Art.

number hundred-and-eighty-eight.

2010-05-05T23:48:00.000+08:00

hello there.
i'm dying.
I offically hate CCN day.
i cannot lazy.

number hundred-and-eighty-seven.

2010-05-03T09:11:00.002+08:00

For the sake of saving my own blog tagboard:

JEDIDAH TAN!

DON'T

ANYHOW

ME!

..thank you.

number hundred-and-eighty-six.

2010-05-02T01:29:00.001+08:00

hello.
its late i know.TIME TO SLEEP~!
Yah,whatever.
I'm a nightbird anyway.

I was at youtube and allkpop again earlier.
This gave me a shock.
Not like B2ST's Shock that was pleasant,this gave a shock.

This..is Jungmin?!I could only recognize its him because of his eyes.

Not that bad.I kind of like it.

..In a way.

Youngsaeng. and handcuff?

Boy,didn't he had his wish of being a badboy.

But can't help but admit that he is hot here.

But please,that mask is a little turn off.

O.M.G

MY BABY~!

A dead rose?!

Awwwwww~!

That mask huh..really annoying.

Kyujong.

WHOSE HAND IS THAT?!

Hyunjoong.

Doesn't he look a little suffocating with those..wires around his neck?

Well,okay.

The overall concept still can accept but then..
really,really shocking.
I want to hear the song now with those photos released.
Shock me,shock me~!

The next,the girl group that is really unique.
They have like a guy in the group.
Not in a literate fact.
Just like how some of the guy thinks that I'm the guy of the girl group and loudly state that I'm one of them.
Yups,F(X).
They are cool with the new comeback.
Can't wait to see the MV man.
Teaser first?

yahhhhh.isn't it cool?can't wait,really can't wait..

number hundred-and-eighty-five.

2010-04-29T13:35:00.002+08:00

hello.
I'm in class,that end earlier than expected.
I'm soooooo upset.
My friend had tickets to Iron Man II.
FREE MAN,FREE.
Yet,I'm a smart aleck.
I agreed to go for dinner with Joanne,FOR ME AND HIM.
now the ticket is wasted because he can't go for it.
WASTED.

well,whatever.
I can't wait for B2ST's comeback with either say no or easy.
If its easy,it could be the sincere version.
ITS NICE,REALLY NICE.
so I'm waiting.
Happily waiting.
Tomorrow there is ultimate frisbee.I didn't really understand why did i took that.
It is a cool sports though.
I need to get a sports CCA.
I'm on the side of scale for gaining weight,and I'm really dripping down very quickly.Therefore I need a good escape from that.tsktsk.
Yah.
Bowling tomorrow,ALL MUST GO OKAY?!
ESPECIALLY KOW JIAXIN,DON'T THINK I'LL FORGET YOU.
HAHAHA~!
pleaseletmeinforchoir
pleaseletmeinforchoir
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number hundred-and-eighty-four.

2010-04-25T00:29:00.000+08:00

my internet sucks like super big time.
currently on Oovoo with Darren and Andy but got knows what the heck is happening here.
I was thinking of this:
if we were to see each other almost five days a week,is there even a need to video conference?!

but oh well.

number hundred-and-eighty-three.

2010-04-20T22:33:00.000+08:00

Hello.
Its ten-thirty now.
My head is really..trodding.
Can't deny that I'm really rather sleep deprived and I didn't do my VDT work today.
Only four boxes left~!
Lazy,really lazy.
I hadn't done any studying for my maths as well.
I'm not really a geek in a way or another.
The need to do well this time round is high.
I want to Ace my subjects but..stressful stressful.

School has just started two days for me.
I had mingle with my class for the past five days,including the orientation time(without those dears that decided not to appear during those time,orientation is the thing not to be missed).
They are really a bunch of funny people to hang out with,though i don't really like the vugularites at times.They make me want to say all those..*toot**toot**toot*
bad influence.
Now,a note to people whom knows my class:
I DO NOT LIKE,I REPEAT,I DON'T NOT LIKE ANYONE AT ALL!
whats with the "you like_____right?" "you and _______ got something right?"
i'm innocent like innocent man!
I just don't know why I talk better with the guys this time round.
I was the kind of people who will throw acid to this gender so I'm amazed by myself as well.tsktsk.
ANYWAY,thats not really the point.
The point is that they don't really take me as my gender so its like "hey bro!" kind of thing?
Stop saying that I like whosoever and whosoever,I'm innocent!!!!

I don't mind swimming the next time round babes.

number hundred-and-eighty-two.

2010-04-17T17:12:00.002+08:00

I ♥ C269.
Yet,I ♥♥ unglams even more.
I miss them.

number hundred-and-eighty-two.

2010-04-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

Ring Ring~
Yoboseyo?Yoboseyo?YOBOSEYO?!
Z-Z-Z-Z-Z Zadaz zadaz zadaz
Z-Z-Z-Z-Z Zadaz zadaz zadaz
Z-Z-Z-Z-Z Ehhhhhhhhhh~
Zadaz zadaz zadaz rocks
Zadaz zadaz zadaz rocks
Zadaz zadaz zadaz rocks
Zadaz zadaz zadaz rocks sock!
ARE YOU READY~?
Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z
EVERYBODY~!
Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z-Z Z-DAZ!

Thinking back about how much i dread about the camp,this makes it funny to see that I'm actually posting up about my camp group cheer.
I'm actually voice-less now..
I love them all really,even though there was times that i really think that the group of people are really..in a way quite clique-ky but the GLs there make the entire thing look so silly.They are amazing people really.
It makes it almost sad to realise that camp will ends and some of them are already graduating already.tsktsk.
I'll miss them lots,really.
ZADAZ~!YOU GUYS ROCKS AND I LOVE YOU ALL~!

number hundred-and-eighty.

2010-04-06T09:25:00.004+08:00

my number of post is getting more and more..

Yet they are all rubbish posts.
HAHA!!
Camp is coming in TWO days time.
I'm not really anticipating for it,but feeling more nervous instead.
Its going to be the mark of my new school life,they are definitely different from secondary school.The poeple there will be totally different from how people are in secondary school.I'm afraid I can't cope with the change.
A little intimidated no doubt but I believe I'll cope well.At least I still have those beloved people behind me where I can go back to them whenever I want to.And they have me.HAHA.

my soulmate.love her lots,really.

my mother.i thank you and love you.

some random pictures?

The other day when both Merrilyn and Oriana came my house for recording.

Because we do not have mic stand to let the mic stay still on its own,we created this.

Ain't we creative?HAHA!

Can't help but say how amazed I am by Jianyu.

Look at the amount of Cheese he had there!!

He really have a stong passion for cheese,don't you think so?

Really a very funny and in a way,weird guy.

The day my hair turn straight.

Do I look alright?

Merrilyn and Qing says that I should have my hair in this way.

HAHA!!

number hundred-and-seventy-nine.

2010-04-04T22:30:00.000+08:00

fi·as·co [fee-as-koh or, especially for 2, -ah-skoh]
–noun,plural-cos, -coes.

1.a complete and ignominious failure.

I like fiasco.
Its not that I like it because i'm sick in the mind who like all this.
It is because the fun that one can enjoy from it.
It is really really really fun,no joke.
It is the point where you accidentally messed something up.
That..is fun.
Why I say so?Because I have Joyce who will scream at me for not being sane.
Because I have Merrilyn who will join in and do the same actions as me and laugh like hyenas.
Because I have Oriana who will stare at us like we are the most idiot dorks ever lived on earth and give us an awkward laugh or cough along the way.
Because I have Pohyock who will try to avoid us like dirt but join in,doubling the folds of the fun.
Because I have the remain others who will make the whole situation even messier and fun.

..
...
....
.....

And I love them all.

number hundred-and-seventy-eight.

2010-04-04T00:36:00.000+08:00

TVXQ to stop their group activities

okay,I'm pissed.
How can this ever,ever,ever happen?!
I meant,yah,lets keep the faith that this infinite hiatus will never last but..I don't trust SM at all.
I really want them back..big time..
this sucks,really.
is this the reality you want?

number hundred-and-sevety-seven.

2010-04-01T20:20:00.001+08:00

School is starting at another two weeks.
This is super boring.
I dont like school anymore.

number hundred-and-seventy-six.

2010-04-01T13:49:00.001+08:00

是有过几个不错对象
说起来并不寂寞孤单
可能我浪荡让人家不安
才会结果都指望

我没有什么阴影魔障
你千万不要放在心上
我又不脆弱何况那算什么伤
反正爱情不就都这样

我没有说谎我何必说谎
你懂我的我对你从来就不会假装
我哪有说谎
请别以为你有多难忘
消失真的不是我逞强

我好久没来这间餐厅
没想到已经换了装潢
角落那窗口闻的到玫瑰花香
被你一说是有些印象

我没有说谎我何必说谎
你知道的我缺点之一就是很健忘
我哪有说谎
是很感谢今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不习惯

我没有说谎我何必说谎
爱一个人没爱到难道就会怎么样
别说我说谎
人生已经如此的艰难
有些事情就不要拆穿

我没有说谎是爱情说谎
它带你来骗我说可我没有可能有希望
我没有说谎
祝你做个幸福的新娘
我的心事请你全遗忘

林宥嘉's 说谎

This came out last year.
Though its been sometimes,but his songs are really great.
His voice is great.
One of few chinese pop singers that I really admire,Yoga Lin.

number hundred-and-seventy-four.

2010-03-31T22:18:00.000+08:00

This is scary.
Most of my blog posts are stating the same thing.

"IamboredIamboredIamboredIamboredIamboredIambored.."

sigh..
This is a bad sign isn't it?
I am just turn eighteen and I'm already bored everyday.
How is life going to be like next time man.
This definitely not a good sign.
I think I'm already looking forward towards EOY,where I can go to korea with Merri and the others.
Really can't wait man.But I realise one thing that I don't really want.

Actually..i really want only our own clique friends and all to be with us in the trip.But she is a friend.Though not all of us are that close with her.I like her really but..I think this was the plan for sometime and I don't know why but was a little unwilling upon hearing that she might join in.Er,maybe I was being selfish or what.I think I'm sensitive overloaded.

number hundred-and-seventy-three.

2010-03-31T12:15:00.000+08:00

I shall show you how bored I am everyday.

What do you think?HAHAHA!
My lousy photoshop skills.
Don't bash me after that.
HHAHAH!

number hundred-and-seventy-two.

2010-03-30T12:41:00.001+08:00

Ahh.I'm still bored.
And to start with,I just posted a post almost three to four hours ago.
How fun huh?
I think I should run off to do my errands soon.
But I'm being a lazy bum.
I think I shall not go anywhere this week.
Because I'm being plain lazy and there isn't anyone that is willing to go out with me for the time being.
Actually,I think I am suppose to go out today.
But I'm being lazy.
And I have no idea what I am going to do there so I'll shall give it a pass.
Moreover,my mum will be home early today so I shall be a good girl.

Right,I'm talking nonsense.
There was a purpose coming to blog now actually.
Just to say this.
기광,생일척아헤.

Actually,I really think that calling guys hyungs sounds better than calling them oppas.I remember once hearing from lisa saying that calling them by oppas makes ladies sound so submissive towards guys.I can't help but agreeing since I too couldn't imagine myself calling them oppas.
Oh,if there were to be a day when any korean netizens happen to come across this post in this blog,please do not think that I'm insulting your cultures about how should ladies and men adress each other.All this is just my own personal thoughts so how you guys could understand.

number hundred-and-seventy-one.

2010-03-30T09:22:00.000+08:00

well,hello.
this is so random.
i want a new laptop.
attempted to blog yesterday using my samsung corby phone.
but it seems like it didn't really worked out in the end.
hahahahaha.
my mother switch off the internet before i could even say the word 'no'.
or maybe even the starting alphabet.
I'm so bored.totally.

number hundred-and-seventy.

2010-03-28T23:36:00.000+08:00

Hello.
This is just a random post.
I realise I'm posting more than usual.
And I'm negalecting my LJ more than ever usual.
I'm bored,thats very true.
I want to start learning my songs,I really think I should.
Especially Jiggy.My tongue has never tied itself so much before.

I wonder sometimes,what am I truely good at.
I play the piano,but not really the best.
I like muddling with IT,but I don't think I'm good at it at all.
I like singing,but I have people who sings way better than me.
I want to learn dancing,but I don't cut out for that.
I want to learn the drum,but never gotten a chance to.
I want to do alot of things,but always seems like there are something stopping me all the time.
That..is an excuse at times right?
I really don't know.
Sometimes when I see all my friends,I tend to feel that..actually,I'm the worse amongst all of them.
Joyce,she is good at dancing,really.She learn any dance that she wants within a day.And she learns it really well too.
Merrilyn,even though she thinks that she isn't good at anything,but i really think that she is quite musically inclined.She can really mix music really well,this is something that almost none of us can do it.
Qingyan,Joan,Joanne,really very smart individuals.They can do well all the time,really don't know how they do that all the time.
..Just all this examples..really,makes me feel rather low at times.
This is stupid I know..Everyone is good at something and I'm mopping over what people are good at and I'm not and all..tsktsk.
I'm quite lousy at this point isn't it?ehheehe.

well,going off.
ciao.

number hundred-and-sixty-nine.

2010-03-26T17:26:00.000+08:00

Can you believe i?
I'M FINALLY DONE DOING THE BANNER!!!!!!!!!!
Went to see my teacher today,she accepted the banner yet,realising one thing.
Wrong date.

I wanted to kill myself on the spot that moment you know.
It was really..goshhhhhhhhhh.
Actually,I was suppose to go back to school today to show Mr J the work first.
Yet,I believe he will make me amend this and that.
I would really regret not keeping everything in layers all thanks to him.
But maybe its not that bad.
Well,I'm not sure.
Going to send the banner design to my teacher.
All the best to meeeeeee~~~!!!!

Lately got hooked to listening to B2ST.
Why?Because of the endless covers we are going to do.
The number of songs is soooo much that it can add up into am album collage.
SNSD,B2ST,F.CUZ..Why there isn't TVXQ or SS501?I would definitely not mind doing their songs.HAHAHA!!
I might as well go create an album art on all the songs and CD label.
We can sign on it like superstars.HAHAHAH!
Then I'm the almighty maknae!!!!HAHAHAHA!
songs anyone?

Yeah, yeah, love is pain, love is pain
Love is over, love is over, that, that, that's it
O-o-o-o-over, love love is pain, pain
O-o-o-o-over, love, break it

Neon jeongmal mystery, mystery, mystery, mystery
Mystery, mystery, aldagado moreu neun neo
Igeot cham mystery, mystery, mystery, mystery
Mystery, mystery

Yeogi jom bwabwa nal jom bwabwa ne ape itjanha
Eojetbam kkaji uri dureun jeulgeo weosseot janha
Gabjagi neo wae irae ne nuneun jakku nal pihae
Gomin gomin haebwado nan mo-mo-mo-mo-molla

B-b-b-b-break it, oh, la-la-la-lady
Neon jeongmal alsu eobtneun question nega mweonde
Dae-dae-dae-dae-daeche wae nae-nae-nae-naege
Ireohke nalhimdeul gehae

You tell me, tell me why, you show me, show me why
Neon wae geureoni daeche nan hante why
You tell me, tell me why, you show me, show me why
Cham aireoni naega piryo eobtni-i-i-i-i

Neon jeongmal mystery, mystery, mystery, mystery
Mystery, mystery, aldagado moreu neun neo
Igeot cham mystery, mystery, mystery, mystery
Mystery, mystery

Teojyeo teojyeo michyeo michyeo gagi ilbojik jeon
Chama chama chamadodwae igeon neowi jakjeon
Geulsse geulsse anilgeol jeoldae jeoldae ain't no girl
Gomin gomin haebwado nan mo-mo-mo-mo-molla

B-b-b-b-break it, oh, la-la-la-lady
Neon jeongmal alsu eobtneun question nega mweonde
Dae-dae-dae-dae-daeche wae nae-nae-nae-naege
Ireohke nalhimdeul gehae

You tell me, tell me why, you show me, show me why
Neon wae geureoni daeche nan hante why
You tell me, tell me why, you show me, show me why
Cham aireoni naega piryo eobtni-i-i-i-i

Jeongmal wae jakku nal deulgehae weonhan geon da haejweot neunde
One, two, shigani galsurok apawa nae gaseumdeo
Tto tto tto saenggak halsurok deo deo deo ma eumi jichyeo
Baraneunge hana itdamyeon cheo eumcheoreom dorawa jweo

Soljikhi mareulhae bwana jeongmal moreu gesseo
Charari sarajyeo julkka
Naega piryo eobtdamyeon naega shilheo jin geomyeon
Geunyang ne apeseo kkeojyeo julge

Neon jeongmal mystery, mystery, mystery, mystery
Mystery, mystery, aldagado moreu neun neo
Igeot cham mystery, mystery, mystery, mystery
Mystery, mystery

You tell me, tell me why, you show me, show me why
Neon wae geureoni daeche nan hante why
You tell me, tell me why, you show me, show me why
Cham aireoni naega piryo eobtni-i-i-i-i

Neon jeongmal mystery, mystery, mystery, mystery
Mystery, mystery, aldagado moreu neun neo
Igeot cham mystery, mystery, mystery, mystery
Mystery, mystery

B2ST - Mystery

Well..I have no idea why this song but it is stuck in my head.
I bet shock is really going to be shocking

Everyday I shock(shock),Everynight I shock(shock)

number hundred-and-sixty-eight.

2010-03-26T01:05:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhhh..
Maybe this is one good thing about staying up late?
I finally got to listen to Hyungjun's Music High radio.
It is superrrrrrrr late at night man.
Talk about the eyebags that he must have gain from the constant late night radio.
He probably didn't even get to sleep much all the time.
Ain't they having a comeback soon next month?
Gosh,all this radio-ing and performance coming up?
I would probably die off within the first week of this crazy schdule.

..Okay,now I do not think that its a good thing anymore.

number hundred-and-sixty-seven.

2010-03-26T00:59:00.000+08:00

Hello.
I know this is not good.

blogging when it is reaching 0100 in the morning?
Hell yeah no.

Well,I don't think I even dare to sleep much if I'm not do with my work.
How great huh?
I really have the feeling of regret for agreeing to this whole project.
I should have known my own limits isn't it?
Afterall,I wasn't a person that could really stick myself to all this promise.
And I'm not that independent on myself.
Yet,if Mr J were to hear or read this,he would probably say..

then its a good time you start learning to be independent.
nobody is going to be there clearing your mess at the end of the day anymore.
You have to go through this eventually.

Ahhh,its not like I didn't understand that.
Its just that..I don't want to face that.
Okay,I admit,I would rather run away from responsibilites than facing them.
I do not have the courage to do that.
A good challenge for me to learn this isn't it?
tsktsk.But I'm still afraid that what I'm doing will not meet what they really want in the banner.
What if I don't do well?
What if I don't meet their expectation.

Then suddenly Mr J's words came into my mind again.

Stop thinking of what if and do what you believe you should do.
Plan everything step by step and do it.
Just like when you are sketching,you make mistake and amend it along the way.
Nothing should be able to stop you from changing mistakes unless they are irreversable.

Talk about how much I remember his quotes and phrases that he uses during Art.
He is probably one of the very few teachers that really make an impact or making me thing about what I am suppose to do to improve on the way I should be living my life.
Definitely thankful for all his scowls and frowns and tearing and scorning aat me for the infinity times in school.
He definitely make me think more in my nutcase brain.

I think I better go to sleep.
My mother is right about sleeping late.
I could probably gain another advance year or two in looking more mature than I ought to be at the rate I'm going.
Night and ciao.

All the best to myself and making banners.
I might have to wait up before dawn to do again.
Talking about little sleeping hours.
Gosh..I better hope they accept it tomorrow.
And for the last time,goodnight and ciao.

number hundred-and-sixty-six.

2010-03-23T21:09:00.002+08:00

hello.
ahh,this is a rather useless post actually.
I am rather afraid that I will not do a good job on photoshopping the banner.
The theme is really..abstract.I really don't know what to do with it.
But I know if my teacher will to hear what I am really thinking,he would say thats its all excuses.
Nothing in Art is too abstract to do.
Even when you are trying to protray the emotions and all.
Well..I never thought i was much of a art person but I want to try out.
But the problem is that..my photoshop ain't working.
That is the most maddening thing I have ever met up with.tsktsk.

I really dislike them at times.
If anyone were to read this post,please don't ask me who.
I don't think I want to tell anyone much about it.
I just want to throw all this out of me.
I suppose to be they are people who are people who will understand me.
Yet,I end up think that we are like almost two kind of people.
They,belong to the very steady and firm people.
They are the kind that would not stand much jokes.
I,on the other hand are the type that are spontanous and crazy kind of people.
I am those who loves to joke and would rather spend my time being happy than being troubled.
Its quite hard to communicate at times isn't it?
I really don't know what to do with them.
Sometimes I would think that would it be me that has omething wrong that makes them disapprove me all the time.
If it is,then i really don't know where have I gone wrong.
I really don't know what to do with them.
It doesn't make sense that other people doesn't tell me that I have something wrong in me when they keep telling me that with almost every four out of five things I do.
Gosh,I really can get really frustrated with them.
I can't really stand them at all man.

number hundred-and-sixty-five.

2010-03-17T10:28:00.002+08:00

Old blog skins are nice to use. (:

number hundred-and-sixty-four.

2010-03-17T10:27:00.000+08:00

Ahh,can't believe it is already the mid of the month..again.
Time flies,really quick.
School is starting soon and thats not a good thing for a lazy person like me.
Yet,I suppose its time to get a little more hardworking than before and living the next school-life to the fullest isn't it?
So now I should get a little more hardworking with getting my butt of the seat and get out of the house to do my mother's errand.Then be a little more hardworking and start brainstorming for my BMW banner making.
Yet,I could not help but think,

Where on earth am I going to find a Photoshop?!

number hundred-and-sixty-three.

2010-03-15T22:18:00.002+08:00

Hello there.
This few time being free and bored,give me the chance to do some thinking.
Actually,what am I going to do about my life in the upcoming years?
Its true that I am not interested in getting married and being tied down,but what am I going to do about the other aspect of my life?
I have seen my cousin who is already in her thirty-odds without a goal in her life,she does not have a proper job of her interest and she is not even settled down about thinking what she wants to do about the remaining half of her life.
Seeing her really creeps me sometimes,I really do not want to be like her.
Seeing her,I am really thankful that I have such a good unch of people with me.
Seriously,thank you.

To my-princess-who-never-pays-her-RPA-a-single-cent,Annabel:
Ahh,did I ever tell you that I always thought that god must have sent you to me as my nemesis since you could never stop asking me about all sort of things under the sky and to fix literately everthing for you?I bet I didn't because if I did,you would have probably pouted and whine a little saying,"I where got ask you everything?And god send me to be your princess,not your nemesis!"and the conversation should be something like that.Yet,amist all those lament of me resigning out of my pay-less job,I have to say thank you to you.Thank you for being dependance on me all this time,you made me felt that I can be useful to someone and I could actually help in a way or another.I use to think that I couldn't do anything because all the while I have been facing negative comments about the ways I do anything.You made me felt that,hey!I could do something right too! and it really felt great.Thanks a lot really.Remember the last year when I was facing the problems with my own clique of friends?Thanks for being there with me all the time,making me feel happy and love.Thanks to you,the final year in KC was made the most memorable.Never should we forget the time at the art room,those memories are amazing.HAHA!Thank you for all those support you gave me all the time.When I go to heaven,I will thank God for sending you to me as my friend.Maybe can ask him to consider letting me meet you again in the next life like how you said the previous time?HAHA.Thank you,really.

To my 'wife' and friend for twelve years,Queenie:
Yo my dear,I don't think you know about my blogger much right?I always told you about my LJ which is a deadified LJ.Can you believe it,its already the twelveth year of our friendship man yet I realise that I hasn't been the best of the best friend that you can ever find on earth.It has always been you the one who come to me when I wasn't feeling great and all yet I have never gone to you when you are feeling down and unhappy.I had been a bad friend isn't it?Thank you for all the care and concern you have given me all this while and I'm sorry that I haven't been the greatest friend who is there when you need someone to depend on.I promise I will be more hardworking than before,to know you even better and show you more concern okay?I love you,and remember that you have me here all this time and forever okay!

To my soulmate friend,Merrilyn:
Man,you are one hell of a person!I really want to thank God for letting me meet someone like you man.I always tell you that I love you right?All of those are true you know,never once a lie.Thank you for being my friend since secondary three,you are the one person who really change me quite a bit you know.I really use to be really crocky and irritating back in the first two years of my secondary life.I think I am still irritating now and all loud and a little crocky at times,but I really learn to be nicer,just like you!You are the one person who always understand me in whatever I say and do and you give me advice at times that you think you didn't but yet is the opposite.You always said that I am a person who gives great advice and care yet what I really believe is that you are that person instead.We have got to remain this close and even more closer than now for the rest of our life alright?My alienated friend who think alike and do alike with me,greatest friend and best unnie,Merrilyn yeong. (:

To my mummy-like friend,Joyce:
Hey woman,you are the first person other than my mother that I would want to dodge away when I do something wrong.Its not a bad thing you know,that shows how much I respect you.Thanks for the overflowing concern you always give me all the time,though I bet when you are reading this you would think that you didn't give that much concern but being there with me,providing me help when I need a solution for my problems,I really appreciate your presence there with me all those times.I am really glad that we got closer during our secondary three year.If we hadn't,I wouldn't have know how to face those dreadful situation without your help there.Thanks for all the fun we had together when we went and those silly faces you give me in maths class all the time.They were really entertaining when I was at the point of falling asleep.I love you lots,unnieeeeeeeeeeeee!!!I know you don't like me calling you that since I'm only two weeks younger than you but,unnieeeeeeeeeee!!!! (:

To my quiet friends,Qingyan and Melissa:
My dears ahhh,talk louder the next time when I see you two again and for the rest of the time when we will spend our lives being friends can?Yet I really love both of your quietness you know,you guys thought me to keep my volume down and help me think though most of things more clearly instead of rushng though them.I love you both,really.You guys have the slient humor do you know that?Its something like..charlie chaplin?Except his are all dark humor,you guys brighten my day up all the time when I meet up with you two.Remember,I love you!!!!And don't just 'ahh ya ya' me okay!HAHA!

To my enemy-to-friend,Oriana:
Ahh..this is the fifth year I've known you.Sometimes it is really hard to believe that we could be such good friends now,talking and laughing all the time when we were the ones fighting all the way back in our secondary school years.Amazing isn't it?I am glad to meet you though after all those fights,you are a great friend!You tell me funny things,treat me to all sorts of funny things here and there..another good unnie to me.We shall keep all this up okay?I will learn to be a better dongsaeng to you,to make you laugh even more,to feel happy that you have me in your life.

To my dearest Om,Lisa:
Omma!How's my Appa?HAHA!Okay okay,you know what om?You are the best Om I have ever met so far in my eighteen years of my life,always leading and teaching me things everytime i meet up with you.You gave me comfort back then when I'm down or angry at certain people or things.When I'm bored,you will entertain me and keep my sprits high.You are great,really.Sorry that I have not been a very good Dal to you,not going for services when I actually already promise you,not replying your messages when I already seen them and yet didn't reply.I promise that from now on,I'll strive to be a better Dal to you,will go for services when I promise you that I will and will keep your messages on my first-hand priority to reply.Love ya always! (:

To my crazy-and-humorous-buddy,Pohyock:
Yahhhhh,this is the sixth year we have been together as friends!Man,this six years have been the time of my life!Always looking forward to going to school to meet up with you and the rest,to play and to study together!You have been a great table-mate for all this years together,you unknowingly entertain me when lessons have been rather boring,helped me when I was about to get annoyed with answering questions and listen to my problems when I need someone to talk to!You are cool even if you don't think so!Sorry that I irritate you at times when I fool around too much or when I was too loud for your likings.I will work hard to be less noisy and be more sensitive towards your feeling.Lets stay this way all the time okay?♥

To friends-whose-minds-ain't-meant-to-be-understood-at-times,Joan and Joanne:
Ahh,this shows how similar you two are most of the times you know.Both your names have the first four letters spelt in the same alphabets,you two think almost alike and you two acts almost alike.Gets me envious at the way you two work together at sometimes,HAHA!Thanks for being there with me at times,getting me interested and some educational talks about *ahem**ahem*.You guys will never fail to kick the laughing homones in me to get me rolling on the floor,choking with laughters.Though we ain't very close now since I could almost never get a hold on where on earth are you two,but I really treasure the both of you as my friends.Sorry that I was loud all the time,I will do my best to not blow your ears off all the time when I'm with you both okay?Stay as friends all the time alright?And Joanne!When are we going to see Yoochun,Junsu and Changmin?!And we are suppose to go korea this year end,you can't reject this offer. (:

To the-friend-who-thinks-i'm-her-guardian-angel,Guimei:
Hey there theodore's mummy!HAHA!I saw that on your msn nick actually and we only had each other's email address after being in the same secondary school for five years,we are truely amazing.HAHA!I am grateful that I got close to you this recent year and it had really been a pity that we didn't get to talk much during the past few years in KC.You are definitely one of the kindest person I have ever seen after meeting so many people in my life.You said once before that I was like your guardian angel,taking care of you and showing you advice about what to do when you are at a point of being helpless yet actually,you seems more like a guardian angel,being so gentle and kind all the time to anyone,even if they had done bad things to you all the time.So kind and forgiving,I could not have been like that if it was me in your shoe.You make me feel that I should change to be more like you.Lets constantly stay together alright,even though we are at different school yet the same campus.Love you! (:

To the many others out there in my life with me right now:
Though I could not name all of you out individually,I love all of you and thank you for being there with me at the different point of my life,helping me out with everything and all.I really appreciate your help and thank you alot,alot. :)
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Though I don't know if any of you would read this here,but I sincerely thank you for being here all the time with me and,I really love you all. (:

number hundred-and-sixty-two.

2010-03-14T20:24:00.000+08:00

bored.

누구들 나는 많은 사랑 친구..

내가 사랑해는 아이둘. ^^

number hundred-and-sixty-two.

2010-03-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

Hello.
This is what you get from very bored people.
Listen to songs.
HAHA!

DADADADADADADADA~~~!

Or maybe my new found favourite?

but this is the english version.
i perfer the korean version.

Or my current favourite?

you will just have to love them don't you think so?
i love them.
daai suki.or something close to that,i don't really know japanese.
nevermind,korean is easier.
neomu joha!HAHA!

ciao.

number hundred-and-sixty-one.

2010-03-08T23:02:00.001+08:00

Hey,
its just a random posting..
what happens if i place this blog to infinite hiatus?
but like who cares.

I want,so want,very want,extremely want to watch this.
My babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~~!!

ciao.

Number hundred-and-sixty.

2010-02-27T11:51:00.000+08:00

"Is it working already?"

"working~!!"

"okay,shut up and post."

Hmm,If anyone were to walk in through the front door and see someone wearing a very old pink tee and sweeping her hands in the air.they might think that she is mad.Well,its not my fault,there is so many flies here,but that ain't the point.

My piano exam is coming in another..4days.Talk about it huh?My aural sucks.I don't understand what on earth there is sight-SINGING all about.I don't understand how can I pass this exam on wednesday.

In conclusion: I'm screwed.

Poly is going to start for me on April 19th.How fun.

I suddenly felt so lazy to go to school now.

Laselle is only starting school at..august.Crazy holidays man.

Not fair.

In conclusion: Join laselle if you want long holidays and crazy art lesson.

This is going to be worse than J.

I'm very very into SS501 lately.

I really really really am very very very interested in HyungJun.HAHAHA!

I think when merrilyn read this she will be like.."yah..Sam's babyyyyyyyy"

HAHAHA!!!He is really very cute.

yahh..show you my favourite song..

na-ege seodo na-ege seodo ganjeolhaejin maminde

eotteokharago eotteokharago haeyo

neomu adeukhan neomu adeukhan sarang inde

jeoldae pogi mothaneun shimjangi geudae ingeo jyo

yeogiseo isseo neoui useum chaja ulkkeoya

nimam apeugehan nunmureun yeogi naega da jaba dultenikka

tumyeonghan ni sarangeul jeoldae ijji mothal gireum mandeuro

bandeushi uri sarangeul dashi chajeultenikka

niga eopshido niga eopseodo jal haenael su isseulkka

kkumeul kku-eodo hangsang duri yeottneunde

neoreul dalma-on neoreul dalma-on shigandeureul

jeoldae pogi mothaneun miryeonhan shimjangingeojyo

yeogiseo isseo neoui useum chaja ulkkeoya

nimam apeugehan nunmureun yeogi naega da jaba dultenikka

tumyeonghan ni sarangeul jeoldae ijji mothal gireum mandeuro

bandeushi uri sarangeul dashi chajeultenikka

teongbin sarange gaseum ta-oreuneun seulpeumdo

neoreul maeumeseo mireonaegi-en bujokhan nareul jaranikka

heureuneun geu nunmure nameun gi-eok majeo jamkil ttaekkaji

bandeushi naui sarangeun neoreul chajeultenikka

-SS501's 'Find'

number hundred-and-fifty-eight.

2010-02-10T14:07:00.001+08:00

you know something?
I realise I couldn't use blogger for some unknown reason for some days.
Its quite stupid actually,when I wanted to do some blogging then it doesn't permit me to do so.
But now it does,so its silly.

I was really feel dejected and disappointed yesterday.
I kind of understood what she meant the other day when I called to wish her happy birthday just to find out that nobody had celebrate her birthday.It wasn't that we didn't want to celebrate,but was that we all didn't had the time to do all the celebration.Some others were working,some were nowhere to be found while her dates are always remain unconfirmed.When we found out that she was free on her birthday,we did make amendments to make her day less terrible but she was unwilling to pay in the effort as well.Maybe I was wrong,she was feeling disappointed and dejected,just like how I felt yesterday thats why she didn't want to celebrate anymore.I remembered pestering her to go out in the end with my best mate to celebrate something at least and not be such a poor little soul stuck at home and I would help her give another bash afterwards when all of us have the time to put it out.I was so terrible,tactless with her feelings.Its a no wonder she would say that I will never understand her when it comes to her birthday.

..now i do.

Yesterday I receive a call from one of my clique mate whom I'm friends with since secondary one and are very fond of.I was rather blown off by her,really.She told me that she would not be coming because she wants to be present for her church mate's birthday party which crash along with mine.I was very upset at that,really.I kind of already expected that she might not come for mine but when I receive the call from her,that was a whole different feeling.I can't really accept it.The feeling was really deep and heavy,and you really would feel very sick and terrible about it,disappointment is such a bitch.

I called my best mate after that and told her about the whole phone call thing and she said that that dear friend should not have done that.It would be like an indirect telling that,the church mate is way better than me that she would go for his and not mine.I said that I do not mind at all,really.But when I hear the other girl who ain't coming as well,she really shattered my heart.She said that she ain't coming because the location was too far,ang mo kio is way easier for her.She ain't coming because she see no point in celebrating my birthday since she didn't had her birthday celebrated.

what the fuck.so this is retribution?
retribution because i did not celebrate her birthday for the past three years that she is doing this to me.
i'm fucking disappointed with her,really.

nevermind,so be it.
and the final thing i want to present.
the point gang.

all this: to chew xinhui :)

number hundred-and-fifty-seven.

2010-01-17T19:32:00.000+08:00

I can't help but say that I'm dreading night fall everyday now.
I don't like going to sleep anymore..even no matter how much i like sleeping.
All because of that stupid game.
And i was not -- i repeat,not -- involve in it at all.
I'm getting creeps for the past two nights,first with the disgusting dream of headless and..it is really disgusting,really.
Please,just imagine,having the view like watching a movie,
watching someone getting shot at the vack and being beheaded after that.
Its gross,really really gross.
Then that person start puking out black substance.gross.
Where those substance come from i have no idea.
Maybe it was adapted from Jennifer's body.
But overall,gross.
Waking up at four,all goosepimples standing out and heart beating as if it was going to pop out isn't a good sign at all.

Yesterday,went to sleep with this freaking bad feeling in my heart.gosh.
Roll around my bed for the two hecking hours,the feeling wouldn't die.
I really wanted to cry so badly.
Spare me the annoy,please.

I swear there is seriously something wrong.
I don't know if it was me who was soo afraid and paranoid that cause me to feel all this and dream that..disgusting dream.
It better disappear soon.

number hundred-and-fifty-six.

2010-01-14T00:15:00.002+08:00

I think my blog are not meant to be read.
Why?Because my fonts irritating.HAHAHAHAHAHA.

still pondering over my JAE.
kill me man.

number hundred-and-fifty-five.

2010-01-12T00:13:00.000+08:00

Hello.
I am really..disappointed at myself.
i hadn't gotten the best results that i was hoping i could get.
maybe back then i didn't give in my best capability.
bel isn't going to be anywhere near me anymore when school finally starts.
maybe this is what you call reality bites.
mel might not want to go to where i am going to land up at.
joyce would be somewhere not near to me as well.
in fact,i don't even know where can i go now.
my results are nineteen,NINETEEN!
i don't know where can i go with this man..
i seriously are darn scare about what is coming up next.
what if i can't get into anywhere?
i don't want to end up in a course that i will never like and..can't do anything after this.
i am so afraid,so darn afraid.

number hundred-and-fifty-four.

2010-01-11T10:07:00.000+08:00

today.is.the.day.
can you believe it?
i can't but its a fact already.
You just have to realise that time passes very very very fast.
and i'm dying slowly at every on-coming minute.
it is really very very terrible.

number hundred-and-fifty-three.

2010-01-03T22:33:00.000+08:00

Well,hello hello.
I'm bored,like usual.
I really just wonder if i could be not sooooo bored all the while.
Make life useful isn't it?
Hope I could get something good to deal with for the time being.

I miss watching TVXQ in action.
glad that they are coming out another single again this time round.
but single..29?I didn't remember it being that far away.
I'm such a lousy fan ain't I?
Now i'm afraid for Super Junior.
Dismanding is a HUGE issue man,The E.L.F would probably kill SME.

I can't wait to go back to school on tuesday.
I miss all my teachers.
Can't I join in classes for awhile,just a tiny while?

..ciaooooooo~

hundred-and-fifty-two.

2009-12-21T18:34:00.002+08:00

Sometimes..
I think having a blog tagboard is really a waste of time.
Come on,who visits my blog?
Then sometimes..
I think having a blog is a waste of time.
come on,I only blog once in a blue moon!

So sometimes,its redundant to come here anyway.
Myabe i'm talking all this nonsense because I'm sick.
Fever and cough.
Torture man.

Sometimes,I think i'm used.
I used to have a friend whom I know since primary school.
Whenever she has her clique,she takes me like a junk.
She gossips about me to her clique member who obviously has some issue about me.
And the best part is,what on earth are the issues?
Thats why I occasionally think they are just a bunch of bimbos.
She doesn't do anything to savage the situation,to place in some good words that i'm never that kind.
I reeally don't understand whats her problem.
Yet,when she needed me because her clique decided to abandon her big time.
She come literately crying to me,saying that at the end of the day,i'm the only one true to her.
However,did she remain true to me?
well,she didn't.
Everyone tells me to tell her get the hell out of my life but i didn't.
I suppose i am too naïve,to believe her over and over and over again.
And she didn't stop to insult my trust for her.

I think sometimes,she didn't conside my feelings.
I know,I really know all her actions are always accidental.
But i couldn't help to wonder did she ever consider if i'm okay with what she do.
There was once she asked if i'm going to have lunch at one,since she is having her break at one.
In a way she would have a companion to keep her accompany for lunch.
I didn't had a choice but to disappoint her since mine was at two.
And all she mention was: "gosh,i'm going to have lunch ALL ALONE"
The moment I told her that I,have been having lunch all alone since the day I went to work,
All she could say was: "huh..really?I didn't know.."
well,that sums up that the concern you gave and have for me,wasn't enough.
I didn't know what I could say back then.
tsktsk.

My mother said that in this society,to be able to find what true friends really are,
the chances are slimmer than 0.1%.
I don't want to believe her,really.

I was taken back by my best friend today.
I know I own her money but..using the word "god damnit",
creep me out.
For a moment,I thought she wasn't who i really know.
The moment I explain to her that I couldn't do what she need.
She said that I need to relax and don't get worked up.
please,who was the cuprit.
She freak me out.
For a moment,I thought she was the other person who does what she did now.
I know she is accidental with what she say and what she meant.
But my feeling was negelected.
It was like,she need what she really need and forgot that it was me that she was asking.

I really don't know what I can do.
I really don't know.

number hundred-and-fifty-one.

2009-12-18T23:32:00.000+08:00

I admit whatever the blames are now.
I admit that I'm a super lazy blogger.
I admit that I'm literately not bothering to blog at all.
I admit that I don't mind placing my blog on eternal hiatus mood.
Well,what can I do?
I've got no time?
Blogging can be a fun thing to do,I admit it.
Yet,work is such a time-consuming thing and I really think that work is such a slave drive.
Eight bloody hours standing.
Alright,take away the one hour of break where you go off to eat and all nots.
Seven hours.
Seven WHOLE BLOODY hours.
Kill me,please.
iwanttoquitiwanttoquitiwanttoquit..

..
...
....
Did I even mention that other than that mad desire to go korea,I really want to go taiwan again?
I really really really want to go taiwan again.
With friends,thats off course.
I want to go to that..what do you call that in english?
I have no idea but that something that we can eat and its super duper nice.
HAHAHAHAHA!
I'm a glutton,without a doubt.
I want to go to 士林夜市,九分,西門町.
Eat and play and eat and play.HAHAHA!
I started planning already actually.
Looking for plane tickets and all isn't really something simple and easy.
I realise I still got to plan the place we are going to stay,whether is it good or not.
tsktsk.
So much planning to do man..

HAHAHAHA!

-ciao.

number hundred-and-fifty.

2009-12-10T11:38:00.000+08:00

Hello.
This is such a boring beginning but oh well,i can't be bothered.
Working in another one-and-a-half hour till night arrives and i really can't be bothered as well.
I really thought of quiting very often.

Pleaseeeeeeee,i'm super duper ultra extremely lazy and thats already an understatement.

Anyway,days are passing on like seconds passing away in an hour.

I hadn't done much to my piano which is standing all alone at the corner of my house for many many months and of course,i'm suffering the consequences.I can't play as well as I use to.This is what you call skill rusting like a rusted nail isn't it?Or whatever it is called.Exam is in another two months or less and this is very very very urgent matter.Gosh,my mother will so going to slaughter me.Or rather i'll commit sucide first.

This is killing and my mood?

Slacking.

-ciao

hundred-and-fourty-nine.

2009-12-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

Hello.
I gotten myself hooked to CPOP again.
But only to a certain number of singers like..黃靖倫.
His songs are really nice.
And the best part is his album is coming out on this friday,
which meant i can download songs again.
HAHAHA!I hadn't done that for sometime already,i meant by album wise.
Anyway,i'm ciao-ing now.
Some recommendations.
12/11 "OK MAN".
Can't wait.

黃靖倫《透明人》

黃靖倫《心碎雨》

ciao.

hundred-and-fourty-eight.

2009-12-01T23:11:00.001+08:00

四目交接的时候不要停留太久
适可而止的问候关心不能太过

好奇也别去探索妒嫉只能深锁

如果忍不住寂寞也不能对你说

啊好朋友啊我的好朋友

不小心的沉默不想让你太难过

我们就站在落地窗的两边

就算触碰也有了界限

如果跨越过彼此那道边界

是靠近还是更遥远

相信我们走到另一个境界

搭肩高唱友谊万万岁

要是我爱你变成了语言

什么会多一些什么会少一些

就让别人去猜测我们清白的很

就让自己去承受那种清白的闷

就算我只是朋友能不能有要求

如果会发生什么也是我想太多

啊好朋友就只是好朋友

不小心说出口微笑中藏着难过

我们就站在落地窗的两边

就算触碰也有了界限

如果跨越过彼此那道边界

是靠近还是更遥远

你会不会也曾闪过这感觉

一念之间就要差一点

要是我爱你变成了利剑

什么会被消灭什么才会复原

那是我的底线继续将你暗恋

张智成《暗恋》

well,hello.

I know its a bit old.

please,i hadn't been listening to CPOP for quite some time already.

I wouldn't have know this song's prescence if Mel hadn't introduce me the song.

Yes,this is pathetic.

But i seriously think that this song is amazing.

Watch the MV as well.

I kinda think the MV kind of make his image change a little.

Mel was right,the MV was pretty gay.

He being a gay is quite amazing.I never thought he look like one.

But nevermind all that,not as if that was for real.

tsktsk.ciao-ing soon.

I've got work tomorrow.

Still regretting a little.

Told ZQ about me unable to go for the sentosa trip earlier just now and he was like..

"where can like that 1.."

I didn't want that to happen to you know.Who ask I agreed to it.damn.

My mother is making lot of noise again.tsktsk.Time to go offline I suppose.yahh.tsktsk.

the MV!

I can post up a link or the MV itself though.Sometimes I think blogger is a ~~sucker~~.

it works right?okay okay.

ciao.

hundred-and-fourty-seven.

2009-12-01T11:52:00.000+08:00

Gosh,I finally understand what 'regret' felt like.
This crazy sour and bitter feeling in the heart that threaten you to give in to the desire to disagree to whatever you have agreed.
And now I'm dying.
MY SENTOSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~!!!
I CAN'T GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~!!
GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~!!
iwanttodieiwanttodieiwanttodieiwanttodieiwanttodie..
Isetan just called me earlier in just an hour ago,asking me to go for the job there since they have the space free for me.
It was enticing for me you know,really enticing.
I was dyin to get a job.
Pleaseeeeee,my pocket is pathetically empty and i can't let that carry on.
Now that I've got one in hand,I think i want to die.
I can't go out this week,at all.
Please,kill me.
My sentosa..
My marina barrage pinic..
My luncheon with claudine tomorrow..
goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
kill meeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

ciao.

number hundred-and-fourty-six.

2009-11-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

Hello.
Firstly i need to say this.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Claudine.
The girl who never fails to dress glamorously.
Please,she is always in dresses and spagatti strips?!
Then to the other one as well,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Melissa.
Our towkay who likes kyuhyun and monkeys.
odd combi though.

I realise I seriously have no time and money for all this that activities I'm having in hand now.
Look at my calendar man.
gosh.
i'm dying.

Friday's event I have yet to do any good planning yet.
tsktsk.
I don't see I needed a planner until now.
Free is never a good thing.
Events that needs you to be keeps appearing at your door steep endlessly.
But I can't really wait for this coming friday though.Its going to be fun.
Cam-whoring hours again.♥

I think thats all I want to say now.
Shall have some time to learn how do some interior designing.
I want to design my own room!
One of my goals.HEHEHEHEHEHE.

ciao.

number hundred-and-fourty-five.

2009-11-30T00:38:00.002+08:00

I tired.really tired.
I know i should go to bed.
I'm waiting for mel.
Lim should be happily spending her time in korea now.
hope she had a great time.
i want to sleep,really.

ciao.

number hundred-and-fourty-four.

2009-11-25T00:21:00.000+08:00

Hey there.
I decided to post something.
Its nothing much though,i'm just suffering from KC withdrawal syndrome.
I want my english teacher to teach me english again,scream at me for not pay attention and give me my english essay that I can spend up to two hours trying to figure the best way to write it.
I want my art teacher to kill my ears and threaten to tear my sketches everytime i move a second slower than expected.
I want my biology teacher to teach me biology again,i never seems to understand the full concept of transpiration and the suction force in it.
I want my social studies teacher to teach me social studies again,i never understand Iraq and Kuwait's war.
I want my literature teacher to teach me again,teach me games at twilight again and threaten to throw her shoe at me.
I want my chinese teacher to teach me again,though i ended chinese last year,she never fail to make me laugh.
I want my maths teacher to teach me maths again,i never got a chance to fully understand graph properly and he never fails to call me a cartoon.
I want my chemistry teacher to teach me again,i want to fully understand how on earth to calculate moles.
I want my PE teacher to teach me PE again,i never got a chance to play much games during her class.

I miss KC,like heck.

number hundred-and-fourty-three.

2009-11-22T17:34:00.000+08:00

heyo there.
i'm bored.
though i'm talking to zheng quan now(we never seems to talk something normal).
then we stop talking.
I'm wasting my youth here actually,doing nothing.
I suppose i ought to be practicing my piano and all,
doing some good to myself.
I'm just being an idiot,afterall.

number hundred-and-fourty-two.

2009-11-13T12:29:00.002+08:00

Hi,and i'm currently not at home.
With annabel actually,at her granny's house,waiting for her to change.
Can't deny that she is in a delimma.
I seriously think what she said is more like an excuse than a reason.
I really hope she could understand what i meant to do what i believe she ought to do.
Tomorrow is another outing day again.

--ciao.

number hundred-and-fourty-two.

2009-11-08T00:40:00.000+08:00

Hello.
I'm already sunday,and i'm not asleep yet.
Went out this mornin with annabel and melissa to the airport to study.
Yet,we ended up teaching her chinese instead of doing MCQ.
I left with merrilyn to eat in the mid afternoon so can you see that i did..nothing.

Meet shawna and zarah in the afternoon for her photography project(opr homework).
Her canon camera is amazing,i totally love it.
though like what she said,the lens sucks.
i prefer those that you can adjust manually.its more fun.heehee.

She bought her DS today,finally.
the person there actually place all like thirty games for her on the spot?
i swear she isn't going to feel bored for a very long time.
makes me wanna have one as well.tsktsk.
but i really like the white version instead of the black version.
three eighty?its quite expensive though you know.
i shall see..heheehe.

i'm talking nonsense.having my liquid mask on and i can't really see what on earth i'm typing.tsktsk.
ciao!

number hundred-and-fourty-one.

2009-11-04T20:59:00.001+08:00

hello.
time flies,its already november now.
so fast.
i'm dying now from boredom and the rain is pouring like heck outside.
tsktsk.
bio paper's on friday with literature,
i really hope i don't screw those two up man.
my life depends on them.
totally.
going to change my blogskin now.
hahahahaha.
see ya in awhile.

number hundred-and-thirty-nine.

2009-10-10T16:24:00.000+08:00

你一個人失了魂　清晨哭到夜深

不要別人問　我不出聲　一直等

聽你說你心疼　當時好傻　好天真

如果可以我願意　這樣陪你到永恆

讓我照顧你　面對再大的風雨

也能微笑做自己　像個孩子　躺在我懷裡

讓我照顧你　在這荒蕪世界裡

就算有新的劇情　在明天等著你

然而在你最需要的此刻　請讓我輕撫你

總有一天會有人　一個懂你的人　

讓你從此不心疼　

如果可以我願意　這樣陪你到永恆

讓我照顧你　面對再大的風雨

也能微笑做自己　像個孩子　躺在我懷裡

讓我照顧你　在這荒蕪世界裡

就算有新的劇情　在明天等著你

然而在你最需要的此刻　請讓我照顧你

你看破了虛偽　拆穿愛的假面

後悔曾經為他付出一切

我會在你身邊　當你傷心欲絕

不奢望你偶然垂憐

讓我照顧你　面對再大的風雨

也能微笑做自己　像個孩子　躺在我懷裡

讓我照顧你　在這荒蕪世界裡

就算有新的劇情　在明天等著你

當你對這世界失去信任　請讓我照顧你

張蕓京《讓我照顧你》

just an occasional random post.

I was bored you see.

very bored.

nobody replied my message(not as if i send a lot though),

nobody to talk to(i'm all alone at home - duh ).

Yes,very very bored.

so i'm going off now.

seeya.ciaos.

number hundred-and-thirty-nine.

2009-10-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

Hello.
I'm back from being hiatus again.then after that,i'll fall back to hiatus mood again.HAHAHAHA!
Well,I'm not really into blogging lately so yes,very lazy and busy with mugging.
Mugging what?
My work of course,Os are coming and I don't think I did much revision.Not that good isn't it?
So I should..ciao first.
Bye!

number hundred-and-thirty-eight.

2009-09-12T15:06:00.000+08:00

Hey there.
Its my brother's birthday celebration today.
I have to say I'm uncomfortable with all this appearance of his friends.
I can't stretch everywhere or anywhere I want to.
tsktsk.
..And they gossips!I can't believe it.
I always thought boys are the one that rough around the place and punch you on your face if they are unhappy with you.tsktsk.
Seems like I had had a wrong concept of boys all along then.
Ciao.
I can't be bothered to talk more.

number hundred-and-thirty-seven.

2009-09-12T00:48:00.000+08:00

Hey there.
Back from hiatus mode.
I wasn't in a hiatus mode to begin with since I never announce my disappearance.
I doubt anyone reads my blog,my humble-o-little blog so I don't actually see a need in explaining my disappearance.
Like I said,who cares?Nobody.
I'm not being emotion-less,but come on,I'm just a plain-o-samantha.
Sometime a over-sensitive Samantha who unknowing becomes overbearing and demanding.
Times to times,rough and ungentle,guyish me.
I suppose I'm multi-persona I guess.
Times to times,nice and friendly to everyone,laugh at everything silly joke anyone tells me and do all my best to help whoever that needs my help.
Or I'm a nasty person who gossips endlessly about the person that I dislike and be a petty two face idiot.
Thats me overall isn't it?
I'm loud,ungentle,rough and point-blant.
Its up to you to take it,or leave it.

Its currently mid-night and I'm not really into sleeping just yet.
My mother had came out to announce her displease with me still using the computer.
I'm an night owl,but they ain't.
My brother and my mother,they sleeps really early and doesn't not approve to what I like to do.
Apparently,I'm rather different from them.
Well,up to them to take what I am.
And I believe they always will.

I was thinking for after my O levels.What I am going to do and plan my holidays.
They..are the things that I am looking forward to very much.
But I suppose the first thing that need to be do during the holiday would definitely be shifting to a new house and refunishing my house.
You know how I want my room like don't you?Well if you don't then its okay,I did post something about my dream house and dream room.
Though the floor-to-celling window is rather impossible to have in my next comfort zone but I suppose I can do with what I have then.
I think I want to do some graffeti on my wall in my new room other than painting the clouds that I always wanted really badly.
I want to do the television picture like the room that TVXQ had for their couple talk.
I love those kind of design in a room,wouldn't you too?
Anyway,my new room will definitely be in blue,white,red and orange...not forgetting black.HAHA.
I remember poh yock was telling me that if I want to be artistic,I could place paint into balloons and smash onto the wall.
HAHA..but I think Annabel was the one who told me that.
..Nevermind who then.All I know that is they have got to be there with me when I refurnish my room.
My bunch of goofy and silly friends.Loveable ain't they?
Next would definitely be the pottery class that I have been so inspired to have.
I really,really want to learn the art of pottery.
It was a pity that in my five years of art in school,I've never gotten the chance to do pottery.
Learning it would be the most enriching thing I can have during the holiday..other than going back for korea language class of course.
Then it would be time to decide what I want to go for in my next part of my education life,the last part of my educational life before I step into society(of course,if I do not get a chance to get into a university in singapore.maybe oversea).Do I really pursue my passion in my music or do the technology that has fascinated me a lot?Honestly,I'm confuse to what I want to do.
I having half the mind now of pursuing art since I was so motivated to do art all the time.
Maybe it was because I'm graduating this year and all the good and fun memories came from the art room where my 'teletubbies' kept me accompany through thick and thin in art.
I would keep those memories forever in my heart.I love those memories.

Results out,then I would do my decision then it would be time for my other major exam: Music.
Time flies you know,it was just at the tender age of four when I started interacting with the piano and now I'm seventeen.Thirteen years have went pass and I'm still playing the piano.Grade Six examination coming soon and I really have to say I'm not working really hard on it.Heard that the tentative day for it would be during late february to early march.So I guess during the holidays other than enriching myself with pottery and korean,playing the piano would be on my daily to-do-list.

March would then be the holiday to korea that I truely wanted.Merrilyn and Joanne have got to be with me this time round for the trip.It was a pity that I didn't manage to go for this end-of-year trip.Shopping then is a necessity,definitely.I am going to shop till I literately drop to the ground.HAHA!

--Alright,time to go to sleep.
Night.

number hundred-and-thirty-five.

2009-08-08T13:47:00.000+08:00

I'm tired.Really.
Life been a drag lately.
Due-dates are coming everywhere as well as those undesirables.
That would meant that my secondary life is coming to a complete stop soon.
Thats fast.
It goes the same to everyone isn't it?
tsktsk.
In another 6 months and 5 days,it would be the beginning of my adulthood.
How quick isn't it?
Life goes on like the wind.
Maybe before you could even realise it,life is just saying goodbye to you and death are sitting there,grinning like a chesian cat,ready to collect you off to somewhere else.
The thoughts scares me sometimes.
It just like realising that time is running up and there is still tens of million things you have not done.
Time to work doubly hard already I guess.

number hundred-and-thirty-four.

2009-07-25T22:31:00.000+08:00

haruga jinago handari jinado

neoyege yeonragi ojireul anhasseo

nunmuri heulleo gaseumi apa

aniya jamsjibbunya

anilgeoya anilgeoya

anilgeoya nareul dallaejima

niga ddeonan bin jariman keojyeoga

neoreul dasi bwado neon neon nae sarang

subaegbeon bwado nan nan ne sarang

haneuli maejeojun neon ne sarang

niga jamsi gireul ireun geot bbuniya

dasi taeyeonado neoman barae

dasi saranghaedo neoman barae

doraolgeoya doraolgeoya
niga eobneun naneun eobseunigga

nal saranghanda haenohgo

dodaeche eodiro ddeonangeoya nareul beorigo

jabeun nae do songgajido oori yagsokggajido

na beorigo ggaebeorigo eoddeoge ddeona

ggumilgeoya ggumilgeoya

ggumilgeoya nareul sogijima

naman honja namgyeojinge seoreowo

neoreul dasi bwado neon neon nae sarang

subaegbeon bwado nan nan ne sarang

haneuli maejeojun neon nae sarang

niga jamsi gireul ireun geot bbuniya

dasi taeyeonado neoman barae

dasi saranghaedo neoman barae

doraolgeoya doraolgeoya

niga eobneun naneun eobseunigga

i modeunge agmongilgeora nan saengakhaesseo

a jebal i ggumeseo ggaegiman barae

oneuli jinago naeil ggo nun ddeumyeon

i modeunge hyeonsiri anin ggumigil barae OH

modeunge hyeonsilboda deo

rieolhaetdan ggumuyeotgil naneun barae neol barae

ajigdo neoreul wonhae

dasi dorabwado neon neon nae sarang

sucheonbeon bwado nan nan ne sarang

haneuli haraghan neon nae sarang

oori jamsi meoreojyeotdan geot bbuniya

dareun yeojal bwado neoman barae

dareun saranghaedo neoman barae

doraolgeoya doraolgeoya

naega eobneun neoneun eobseunigga

nan maeil bam gidohae nae haengbok anin bulhaengeul wihae

neon naega anin dareun sarang mothage

nan neo animyeon an dwae nae simjangi neol marhae

naneun byeonham eobseo dasi taeyeonado neoman barae

dasi taeyeonado neoman barae

dasi saranghaedo neoman barae
doraolgeoya doraolgeoya niga eobneun naneun eobseunigga

-F.T Island Hope

I'm rather shagged at the moment.

This is no joke,really.

I don't think I have an enjoyable week this week,really.

Sleeping not more than 3 hours a day,this is really of no joke.

I died off on friday,broke down actually.

In class,thats embarassing.

I hope I didn't really make a fool out of myself though.

First time crying infront of others,its not really a nice scene I suppose.

And I don't even wanted that scene,talk about it.

tsktsk.

can't be bothered to talk,bye.

number hundred-and-thirty-three

2009-07-21T16:28:00.000+08:00

Hey there.
its been a little while since i last post.
maybe it was just a few days,i don't know.
lost track of time now.
life been a little drag lately.
I hasn't been on my best i think,
my brain ain't working for me even my heart plead it to.
well,to begin with,it didn't really agree with each other with everything but music.
I don't know whats with me.
aish.

hundred-and-thirty-one.

2009-07-06T20:13:00.001+08:00

風に揺れる午後の光　

テーブルに乗せたTea for Two

僕はソファに横になって　

君を見つめている

何だか歌ってるみたいに　

繰り返し読んでいるレシピ

どんなものが出来上がるの？　

レモンとバニラの香り

君が作ってくれるなら　

それだけでホント嬉しくて

ずーっと続くように

大切で　大切で　

世界で一番に大切な人

いつまでも　いつまでも　

僕のそばで笑って見つめさせて

手伝うフリして、嘘だよ　

kissしたくなっただけさ

後ろから抱きしめたまま　
作るのってどうかな？

明日で世界が終わるなら　

明日もこうして笑いたい

きっとレシピを読んでる君　

僕はkissしてる君に

そして「好きだよ」って言うから　

うなづいてくれればいいから

今日と同じように

君だけが　君だけが　

僕を強くも臆病にもするよ

愛しても　愛しても　

愛し足りない気がして怖い

守りたいからせつなくて

大切で　大切で　

世界で一番に大切な人

何よりも　何よりも　

君に出会えたことが幸せ

ただふたりでいるだけで　

ただそれだけで甘い時間(とき)を…

東方神起's Tea For Two.

最近無聊點，打華文吧！

反正也很久沒有打華文字了，有點懷念。

呵呵，我神經有點問題，可以無視一下。

還有，反正有這個無聊到爆點的部落格有誰會看咧？

我也不知道。哎呀，反正我就是無聊了。

要你管，呵呵！

最近都是在聽日韓歌曲，聽到超級爽的。

東方神起，聽過了吧？

我天天到再聽他們的音樂，百聽不膩。

認識我的人都應該知道的。呵呵。

我最愛的成員？就是超級無比可愛的樸有天啦。

我覺的他有時還比金俊秀可愛，

比金在中更性感，

比鄭允浩還酷，

比沈昌珉...不知道了。

沈昌珉沒得比，我唯一能比的就是高度，

但是他是長頸鹿所以什麽都沒得比。

好啦，比沈昌珉還能唱。

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。

好了我也抽夠風了。

さよなら．

number hundred-and-thirty.

2009-07-05T14:12:00.000+08:00

Hi,i'm bored.
This is the fact.
I'm ALONE at home doing NOTHING.
我想用華文來打字.
因為無聊,還有我被拋棄了.
知道啦，我在這裡說的這一切很幼稚啦。
但是吼，我真的受不了嘢。
他們都沒叫我去！！
算什麽朋友嘛！
我已經一個星期哪都沒去了。
我天天不是會見做功課就是在學校了。
好了，除了星期五那天我跟青燕和melissa去了parkway.
我可變得很乖了啦！
功課天天做完。
真是的。
好了，鬧够了，拜。

number hundred-and-twenty-eight.

2009-06-14T00:13:00.000+08:00

Hey there.
Its 11:23pm now and I'm really on the verge of going to bed without bathing.
Tsktsk,and thats super gross really.
I would probably be dead by tomorrow morning in my own filth if I were to really not shower.
And that is..beyond my imagination so its not an option.
I was in the bus just now.
The trip was super long and boring.
Kept watching DBSK's Five In The Black Concert.
HAHA.As usual,they are the best.
Was just wondering what would I do if I'm rich.HAHA.
Thats a stupid wonder,really.But I shall just talk about it.HEHE.
Well,I suppose I would fix up my current house and get moving to another house with my family.
My mother always mavel about living in a terrace house.Big and nice.My mother loves it.
Then I will want to fix up my room like what I wanted and get a mixer~!
Start mixing my own brand of music and all.YES.
Then I want to meet dongbang!
I will meet all of them,or I meant go to at least one of their concert.
I will buy all their CDs,DVDs,photobooks..whatever that got to do with them.
HAHA.Same goes to Super Junior,F.T Island..HA!
Then I want to go to Paris,Korea,Japan with Merrilyn-ie and Pohyock-ie.
We will go and take tons of photographs together and have fun like crazy.HA!
Then I would bring my family with me to the country we want to stay over in and stay there forever.
HAHA.This would be so lovely isn't it?
Felt so like a dream(like DUH.HA!)
HAHAHAHA,it would be sooooo cool.really.

number hundred-and-twenty-seven.

2009-06-13T16:33:00.000+08:00

Hey there.
Alright,I'm currently being stared at by my little cousin who is a decade younger than me but I don't care.
She doesn't understand what I am writing anyway.
And now she wants the computer.
alright then,bye for now...

number hundred-and-twenty-six.

2009-06-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

Hi there again.
Its a pre-sleep post.HA.
Okay,i'm a little bored.
Everyone except me is playing mahjong.
And I didn't join in the game.
Its a little crazy and I suck in it.
Can you believe it?I didn't even win a single round through the entire game.tsktsk.
Anyway,I don't care.

Watched Cinderella Man just now.
I bought the DVD,to be exact.
The television isn't showing this show yet.
And I regretted not getting the other show that was offered.
Kangin is in it.
And I choose not to buy it.
tsktsk.
right,whatever.
I'm going off again.
Night.

P.S: I'm bored.

number hundred-and-twenty-five.

2009-06-12T09:02:00.000+08:00

Hi there.
I'm currently at hong kong now.
Its a little sudden i know.
I miss my dears now..like merrilyn-ie and pohyock-ie.
My little ones.HAHA!

Waiting to go out.
I really seriously don't understand whats with my brother.
He has no desire on getting out of the house early.
Iwanttoshopiwanttoshopiwanttoshop.
tsktsktsk.

Its Macdonald time~!
See ya.I so going to shop like crazy...when I can.HA!

number hundred-and-twenty-four

2009-06-04T13:39:00.002+08:00

Hey there.
Its my dear's birthday.HAHA.
Not exactly mine but the cass as well.

Happy 23th Birthday Yoochun ahh.
Hope you have the best day ever alright?
Love you always.
생일축아해요!
믹키유천,사랑해!♥

이유를 묻지 왜요 즘안 보이냐고

그녀를 만난 이후 부터 라고

이해하기 힘들다고말 하지만

그녀없인 난 숨쉴 수조차 없어

Don't wanna live by no one else's design

하루를 살아가는 내 기쁨의 이유

알고 있니 바로 너야

너와 영원히 하기를 소망해

조건 없이 너무 사랑해

세상 모든 행북과 비교할 수 없어

너만큼은 절대 아냐

I love my beautiful ordinary life with you

Dong Bang Shin Ki's Beautiful Life.

number hundred-and-twenty-three.

2009-06-03T17:26:00.000+08:00

Hey there.
I'm secretly using the computer now.
Why?Because my mom saw my results.
That spells trouble,isn't it?
tsktsk.
I'm really lacking of things to post again.
You know what?
I shall post tomorrow then.
My dear's birthday.
How can I miss it?
유천이,사랑해!♥

number hundred-and-twenty-two.

2009-05-31T17:50:00.001+08:00

Hello there.
I'm typing without looking at the words.
Because..I can't see it at all.
T.T LOL.
Its the weirdest thing ever.YAH.
NEVERMIND.I'M LOGGING OFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!

number hundred-and-twenty-one.

2009-05-29T18:57:00.000+08:00

Hey there.
I'm back again.
Comment if you see this alright?
I wonder how does it look...
HAHA.
Can you believe it?I made it myself~! XP

number hundred-and-twenty.

2009-05-29T16:27:00.000+08:00

I hear you breath

You're lying close to me

The shadows gone

I have found my peace Oooh

You make me calm

With you I'm safe from harm

And right by your side

I'll stay thru the night 'til eternity

That's the way it will be

And I wonder what you're dreaming of

You're so peaceful when you sleep

Everything I want everything I need

Is lying here in front of me

And if I ever lose my power to fly

Then your love takes me hight

I'll always be true to you

Sometimes I think I might lose it all

Guess the chances are small

Cause you hold me close I feel you near

Don't let go say you'll always be here

So just hold me tight and I'll be fine

Dreaming you will always be mine

Just like the sun

You make me warm inside

Like a soft summer breeze

A moment to seize, so true I won't stop loving you

And I wonder what you're dreaming of

You're so peaceful when you sleep

Everything I want everything I need

Is lying here in front of me

And if I ever lose my power to fly

Then your love takes me hight

I'll always be true to you

Sometimes I think I might lose it all

Guess the chances are small

Cause you hold me close I feel you near

Don't let go say you'll always be here

So just hold me tight and I'll be fine

Dreaming you will always be mine

And I wonder what you're dreaming of

You're so peaceful when you sleep

Everything I want everything I need

Is lying here in front of me

And if I ever lose my power to fly

Then your love takes me hight

I'll always be true to you

Sometimes I think I might lose it all

Guess the chances are small

Cause you hold me close I feel you near

Don't let go say you'll always be here

So just hold me tight and I'll be fine

Dreaming you will always be mine

FT Island's Always be mine.

Hey there.

Can I tell you something?

I'm going to burst like a balloon soon if I don't say it.

Promise that you wouldn't let the whole world know?

I know you wouldn't.

Thats why I love you.*giggle**giggle*

You know what?FT Island is coming to Singapore.

*Shhhh*Psst!You promise that you wouldn't tell so don't make too much noise.

Or else the aliens would come to take you and FT Island away!

*wisper*Psst!Merrilyn and I are going to go and get the tickets tomorrow.

And we are going after going to school.

*wisper again*Psst!There is going to be limited edition poster given.

I so want it.

*giggle**giggle*

I can't wait!

*Look around,wisper again*Don't tell alright?I'm sneaking off now!

*wisper**wisper*Don't tell anyone that I blog alright?See ya~!

*sneaking off,giggling softly*

number hundred-and-nineteen.

2009-05-28T23:39:00.001+08:00

ベッドに座って　君のことを考えていた

逢えなくてもいい逢いたいこの気持ちだけでいいから

強く残っている記憶　君からの短いメッセージが

切なく胸締めつけるけど　永久の幸せ僕が守り続けたい

風になってそっと包みたい　

君がいる世界にすぐ飛んで行きたい

逢いたくても逢いたくても　

待ってるからだ忘れないで

いつもの歩道に君の影を感じていた

静かに瞳を閉じ祈るいつまでも消えないように

深く傷ついていたこと　気付かせず笑っていた君に

ずっと大切にするから叫び続けるありふれた言葉でも

風になってそっと包みたい　

君がいる世界にすぐ飛んで行きたい

逢いたくても逢いたくても　

待ってるからだ忘れないで

君に触れた夜壊れてしまうほどに

漂う香りにまた想いが募る Baby

いつまでも果てないように

もっと強く繋いだ手離れないように

風になってそっと包みたい　

君がいる世界にすぐ飛んで行きたい

逢いたくても逢いたくても　

待ってるから待ってるから

風になってそっと包みたい

君がいる世界にすぐ飛んでいきたい

逢いたくても逢いたくても

待ってるからただ忘れないで

ここにいるよ忘れないで

東方神起's 忘れないで

number hundred-and-eighteen.

2009-05-27T23:26:00.001+08:00

I'm so tired of being here

suppressed by all my childish fears

and if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'cause your presence still lingers here

and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal

this pain is just too real

there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

I held your hand through all of these years

but you still have

all of me

you used to captivate me

by your resonating life

now I'm bound by the life you left behind

your face it haunts

my once pleasant dreams

your voice it chased away

all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal

this pain is just too real

there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

I held your hand through all of these years

but you still have

all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

but though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

Evanscence's My Immortal.

I love it.

number hundred-and-seventeen.

2009-05-27T23:15:00.000+08:00

Hey there.
Its 10:56pm now.
Iamboredagain.
Mymumisaskingendlessquestionagain.
Iamdying.
Yes.I'm sick of answering questions.
Its never-ending!!!
I hate it.tsktsk.

hundred-and-sixteen.

2009-05-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

Some people live for the fortune

Some people live just for the fame

Some people live for the power yeah

Some people live just to play the game

Some people think that the physical things

Define what's within

I've been there before

But that life's a bore

So full of the superficial

Some people want it all

I just want nothing at all

If I ain't you baby

If I ain't got you baby

Some people want diamond rings

Some just want everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain't got you

Some people search for a foutain

Promises forever younger

Some people need three dozen roses

And that's the only way to prove you love them

Hand me the world on a silver platter

And what good would it be

with no one to share,

with no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all

But I don't want nothing at all

If it ain't you baby

If I aín't got you baby

Some people want diamond rings

Some just want everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain't got you

Some people want it all

But I don't want nothing all all

If it ain't you baby

If I ain't got you baby

Some people want diamond rings

Some just wnat everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby

Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing

If I ain't got you with me baby

Alicia Keys's If I ain't got you.

Hey there.
Nothing much,just saying hi.
I'm finding for this silly interior designing software the other day.
Just to design my dream house.
HAHA.I'm a little obssess over the idea of it,yes.
Now I'm sitting down here stoning with my mother nagging.
LOL.She's irritating sometimes.
Yes,i still love her.
I want my guitar course,really.
I'm like anticipate for it?Yah,but she is out to object.
What should i do to make her agree?
God knows.
Maybe I'll have to talk to her about the sign up form thingy.
tsktsk.
endless trashing.
see ya,its night time.
got school tomorrow.
tsktsk.
sick and tired of it.

number hundred-and-fifteen.

2009-05-23T22:32:00.001+08:00

When you were here before

Couldn't look you in the eye

You're just like an angel

Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather

In a beautiful world

I wish I was special

You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts

I want to have control

I want a perfect body

I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice when I'm not around

You're so fucking special

I wish I was special

But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell I'm doing here?

I don't belong here

She's running out again

She's running out

She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy

Whatever you want

You're so fucking special

I wish I was special

But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here?

I don't belong here

Radiohead's Creep.

Hey there.

Yess,its usual that I'm here saying this.

Iamboredandspazzingaroundagain.

I like that song.Its nice and I know half of my friends wouldn't like it.

Especially Annabel.

She most probably would say...

"Eww,why you like this kind of song?Where got nice?"

Yah,the interpretion that my head gives me for her version of saying.

Oh well,that isn't really the issue because I would just rebut and keep the entire debate going.

I want to talk about something that is random,

before I decide to use my brain juices on racking ideas for my art,again.

I want to talk about my dream house.

I am so going to stay outside when I grow older.

Studio Apartment?I heard that its small,not very small.

And its just a hall that contains bedroom,living room and kitchen in one,

and of course the most important,a bathroom.

Thats the kind of house I want,not too big.

Or maybe a cottage kind with a cute lawn outside.

Thats if I got married or something.

My house has got to be painted with blue,white and gold.

Why?Because the theme of my house is going to be baby sky.

I know it reminds people of Kiss the baby sky.

Well,a small little idea came from there and the bigger part of it came from scenery.

Oh please,look outside the window every morning now then.

The scenery of morning sky in breath-taking.

And I am not joking.

The light blue with dilute white patches..

It really has this calm effect..well,at least on me.

Wouldn't it be wonderful if you get to live between the clouds in the sky?

Makes a dreamy effect.HAHA.

I love it like never before,i promise you.

HAHA.

The floor has to be carpetted.
Gives a nice feeling with feet and you wouldn't fall unnecessary.
HAHA.
I want a big bed with beign sheets and pillows.
A king or queen size will do.
Then I'll lace it with my mickey without minne mouse softies all around.
I think I'm the one of the only few who loves mickey mouse but not minnie mouse.
HAHA.Well,I don't care.
I want a small,cute kitchen.There isn't a really big need for a stove since I can't cook.
No point in having one that keeps dust.
I want a microwave and an oven!I want to learn how to bake instead.
Cookies and Cakes..Tiramisu cakes..Chocolate cookies..HAHA.
I'll get diabeties at the rate I go with sweet stuffs.HAHA.
Lets sidetrack a little,do you know whats the meaning behind Tiramisu?
It meant 'take my love with you'
Isn't it sweet?Give that cake to your lover man!
Its like an indirect love confession to your special one there.
That would be so lovely isn't it?
Okay,back to the main topic again,my dream house.
I want my bed against the drop-glass.
The whole pannel of windows where you can lean against your bed
and stare out into the night sky,have a book that interest you or something interesting
and a cup of tea to drink..Thats one good enjoyment there.
A good place for inspiration to kick in and create the best music or playscript.
Thats what I believe in.
I want a small little corner for my keyboard or piano and recording stuffs.
I'm aiming to be a composer.HAHA.
Don't know if that would work out but I would try.
That place has definitely got to be the quietest place in the entire place.
Then I can play my inspiration and get inspired.yups.
I want a cute little sofa near my door,against the wall there.
Then tv at the corner side with my table where the computer is.
I'm going to leave a big space in the middle of the house
where I can laze around with friends who do sleepover at my house.
We can roll around,laugh at ridiculous things and
talk the night out looking at the sky through the drop-glass.
I want a small bath-tub in my toilet.
That is so that I can relax after a long day of whatever I have done.
Oh!Not forgetting to mention,I need to have a place at the end of my bed with my beanies!
They are there to be my relaxation with a small little cabinet at the side
place with the books of my interest and my CDs(I can't live without them)
and my CD player with my other electronics like handphone and ipods.
I need not have a big walk-in dressing room like annabel's.
I just need a small closet with my clothes neatly folded in it.
HAHA.My dream house.
Really quite dreamy.

number hundred-and-fourteen.

2009-05-22T22:08:00.001+08:00

Hey there.
I have to say the usual.
Iamsobored.Iamsosobored.yess.
thats not a good sign isn't it?
And moreover,i'm famished.
Thats even worst.

Made a trip down to parkway earlier on with Guimei.
Both of us had a lunch date together at Macs(that wasn't the best place but we wanted to eat so yah)
I know we look queer going out together for lunch date.
I meant,who on earth would think that Samantha and Guimei would go out together?
I don't think anyone other than those who knew that we got closer this few days.
Some didn't understand so I wouldn't blame them for their assumption.
Back to the topic,both of us went to NTUC.She wanted to get her shower gel refill.
Palmolive.Thats that brand.
Both of us was literately flipping the soap and shampoo section but there wasn't the refill.
Then I notice a soap that is so intriguing to me,really.
Chocolate tuffle shower gel from natures organics.
You wouldn't believe it,it smells exactly like Chocolate.
I had to buy it,really.Makes me feel like I'm indulging in chocolate when i'm bathing.
Guimei suggested Giant after that,I didn't reject to the idea.
I'm so excited to bathe in it after that.Just hope that ants wouldn't find me after that.

Giant had the refill but she got hook onto the other offer there.HAH.
Olay was giving her such temptation that she can't resist.
HAHA.Change of course then,obviously.

Now here I am,bored.
And still famished.
I shall look for food then.
see ya for now.
Oh I'm so in need of lyrics.HAHA.
Again.

He's my hot man.XD

number hundred-and-thirteen.

2009-05-22T13:51:00.000+08:00

hihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihi.
iamborediamborediamborediambored.
i don't know why am i doing this.

love you!

LOL

bye

number hundred-and-twelve.

2009-05-21T19:03:00.000+08:00

Lyrics,lyrics!
I love this song.you've got to listen to it really!
watch the video on youtube or something.its beautiful.
I want to learn the song on piano,badly.
HAHA.Here we goooooooooooooo~~!!

終わる筈のない愛が途絶えた

いのち尽きてゆくように

ちがうきっとちがう心が叫んでる

ひとりでわ生きてゆきなくて

また誰かを愛している

ここり悲しくて言葉にできない

la-la-la la-la-la la-la la-la la-la-la

la-la-la la-la-la 言葉にできない

あなたにあえてほんとうよかった

嬉しくて嬉しくて言葉にできない

la-la-la la-la-la la-la la-la la-la-la

la-la-la la-la-la 言葉にできない

あなたにあえて woo..

言葉にできない

今あなたに会えて woo..

小田和正言葉にできない

number hundred-and-eleven.

2009-05-18T14:58:00.001+08:00

Hey there.
Its monday today.
And I do not have school today.Yes,my house is infested with boys.
My brother's the host so i need not care much about them.
I finally work out the mixer,though there was nothing much about it but i'm glad i did.
It was killing me last night.
And i'm still bored.
I wonder is there anything else I could do now.tsktsk.

Songs,yes,songs.they will be a life-saver.
..For now.

Oneuldo nal gidaeyeojoon ni moseup nan gieokhae

gakkeumsshik himi deul ddaemyeon nan hangsang neol

saenggakhae

Gomawoon gippeul ddaemyeon dagati wootgo

eonjena saranghaneun mamchoongboonhae

Geujeo badgiman haeddeon neoui maeum ijen da dollyeojoolge

Jogeum deo gakkai sarang neowa naega

jigeun idaero hangsang neoreul jikyeojoolge

Ddaeroneun jichyeoseo apeugo himdeulmyeon geujeo neon gidaemyeon dwae

Yeongwonhi Happy Together

Jegeumman dareul pooninde chagawoon geu shiseondeul

Geu nooga mweroa handedo neomaneun byeonchi anhgil

Gomawoon himdeul ddaemyeon dagato woolgo

eonjena hamkkehamyeo jikyeojweoseo

Geujeo badgiman haeddeon neouo maeum ijen dadollyeojoolge

Jogeun deo gakkai sarang neowa naega

jigeum idaero hangsang neoreul jikyeojoolge

Ddaeroneun jichyeoseo apeugo himdeulmyeon geujeo neon gidaemyeon dwae

Yeongwonhi Happy Together

Sesange garyeojin noonmool heulligo isseul ddaedo

Noonbooshin geudaega isseo himnaeyeo wooseul soo inneun hangsang

Happy Together

Neon naui jeonbooya neon naui choigaya

Nae saran geudae nooga mweoraedo nae sarang

Jogeum deo gakkai sarang neowa naega

jigeum idaero eonjerado gyeote isseo

Ddaeroneun jichyeoseo apeugo himdeulmyeon geujeo neon gidaemyeon dwae Uhh~

An dwendago malgo shiplaehanda malgo

Nooga moolajweodo geudaen hal soo ijjyo

Ijen byeonchi malgo hamkke wooseobywayo

Yeogi inneun modoo hangsang haeongbokhagi

Sarang haengbok jigeumbooteo sarang haengbok yeongwontorok

Sarang haengbok neowa naega sarang haengbok hamkke hagi

Yeongwonhi Happy Together

Super Junior's Happy Together.

number hundred-and-ten.

2009-05-18T00:06:00.002+08:00

Hey there.
I know I should be sleeping at this time,i mean,its already 11.22pm?
Yeah,but there isn't school tomorrow.
I suppose I can enjoy the young night?

I believe my mother will kill me.

Currently sitting here,trying to fix a problem I have.

I really do not know how to use the audio mixer that I've downloaded.

Really,its killing.

I think I need merrilyn to teach me how to play with it.

Maybe she could if she wants to.

On tuesday?She is coming over.

That would mean 'spring cleaning'.

My room looks as its the aftermath of a nuclear bombing.

(Read the news on NK and nuclear bombings,not really a nice sight.)

I wonder would I survive doing that.tsktsk.

I hope I do..

I'm tired.

Feel like its time to go to bed.

tsktsk.

night there.

My favourtie song?

yeah..

First time when I kissed your lips, you were a loveable

It was bright snowing day when our love began.

Girl they just don't understand, not even a clue

So girl I wouldn't stop. I'm the one who will be right there

(Lets stay together)You Are my girlfriend

(It feels like heaven.)I love you. I do love you so

Just walk with me till the end of times yeah

So let me be of your mine! Just let me please you!

I'm just tryin' to say how much I do love you

I've been tease you so long that was my bad expression to you

For just now. Sitting here. Get relax. The day you gave me a blue

tumbler like a puppy lover

Yeah~ with this coffee sweet imagine our future marriage

and gettin associated.

So girl listen to my heart wouldn't change.

Maybe my love is bigger than the Ginger bread man's vitality

Baby~ Good morning everyday I woke up with you with a lovely call.

I didn't know how to (cook but I can make a song).

Girl they just don't understand. Not even a clue.

So girl I wouldn't stop. I'm the one who will be right there.

(Lets stay together)You are my girlfriend

(It feels like heaven.) I love you. I do love you so

Just walk with me until the end of times yeah.

So let me be of your mine! Just let me please you!

Everything will gonna be fine.

God gave me answer of my life.

Look at me girl

You're lovely I can tell so

One day it will come true. Baby never gonna make you cry.

(Lets stay together) Girlfriend

(Hold on together) everythings all right

Till the end of times baby

Leave the passed behind

You're always my girlfriend

Yeah~ I do. Love you so much I do baby

Just walk with me follow me

Of your mine just let me please you

I love you baby

Park Yoochun's My girlfriend.

number hundred-and-nine.

2009-05-13T14:35:00.001+08:00

Hi.
I know I've been an ass,didn't blog for reaching a month.
I wasn't in any mood you see,I didn't even glance at my LJ much.
Its rotting.

I'm sorry.I didn't meant to..

Yes,then I hasn't been sensible.

I didn't really work hard at all for my midyears.

Its reflecting at my laid-backness.

I'm going to get Fs everywhere.

I'm sorry..

Then I hasn't got my emotions in check at all now.

I'm losing a lot of things here and there.

My relations are on a defict instead.

Thats not a good sign.

Forgive me,don't leave me..

I hasn't been getting much talking done well with them.

I miss the times where we sit down and talk like nothing could stop us at all.

I really want that back again.

I love you all..

I have nothing much to talk about life now.

I'm not really happy,to a point.

Yes,and its sowhat affecting.

This is not a good thing.

Oh well,i suppose its time to think through everything.

Giving it up?Its hard,really.

Try tearing the plaster off the wall,its equally hard.

It hurts really.

I don't like detactments,really.

I hate it.Don't even talk about it.

I'm too sentimental really.

Going off,with my one of my all-time favourite.

Rain in my heart..

Mou yamanai namida wa TONIGHT

Kimi ga saigo ni nokoshita

Hakanai wasuremono no you ni

I MISS YOU..

Kimi no inai sekai wa yami ni furuete

Nee~ subete yume nara ii no ni

Aitakute ohh MY GIRL

Aenai wake wa kimi no sayonara wo

Kikitaku nakatta kara

BABY I STILL LOVE YOU

Mou nakanaide itsumo YOU'RE CRYIN' BABY

Sonna tokoro mo SO SWEET

Ima wa boku janai dareka ga Yeh

Namida wo nugutterundane

Dakedo kimi ga suki da yo wasurerarenai

Omoide no naka dake ikiteru

Kono omoi FOREVER dakishimeta hi no

Kimi no kaori zutto karada wo hanarenakute

BABY I STILL LOVE YOU

Hazusenai mune no KUROSU ni kizanda sono namae

Baby you're my love

Kimi no inai sekai wa yami ni furuete

Nee.. subete yume nara ii no ni

Aitakute OH MY GIRL

Aenai wake wa kimi no sayonara wo

Kikitaku nakatta kara

Ima mo kimi ga suki da yo

BABY I STILL LOVE YOU

Wasurerarenai

Omoide no naka dake ikiteru

Kono omoi FOREVER

Yamanai ame ga boku no kokoro dake

Kagirinaku nurashite mo

I CAN'T SAY "GOODBYE" CAUSE I LOVE YOU

Kim Junsu's Rainy Night.

number hundred-and-eight

2009-04-17T21:40:00.003+08:00



		I will marry Yoochun.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Korea in our fabulous Apartment.
		We will have 0 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a White honda.
		I will spend my days as a Composer, and live happily ever after.

Saw this at some random LJ so had a try on it.
I'm glad that I've got YOOCHUN
HA!

number hundred-and-seven.

2009-03-31T18:32:00.006+08:00

Hi there.
I'm currently suffering doing literature.
Why?
Because I was being naïve,I believe in the wrong person.
I chose to gave her a chance,even though when I first got her in my group,I know its the end-product.
But I believe in her you see.
I wanted to see her determination to strive for a better results for herself,
or at least,change the image I have for her.That laziness,I believe,will get her to her own doom.
But in the end,she proven me otherwise.
She had proven to me that the fact is I was a fool in trusting her.
She had proven to me that the fact is I shouldn't give her a chance at all.
And now I'm stuck with her work as well.
I'm not going to pull my group to doom along just because she ain't cooperating.
I would just have to tell the teacher she ain't working along with everyone.
She didn't do her part,so its the end.I'm not going to be nice at all.

number hundred-and-six.

2009-03-25T20:55:00.001+08:00

Hi.
I want to fall in love,out of a sudden.
Just has this tinkling feeling in me that makes me feel fuzzy and want to be in love.
LOL.
It makes no sense.
I miss merrilyn,that silly girl.
I will be seeing her tomorrow though.
HAHA.
Better suck her in so I don't need to miss her that much,my best friend.
I sound preverted but who cares.
And she better not says that I don't mention her in my blog cos' I mention her in my diary instead.
Isn't that better?But oh well.
I have a test tomorrow,better start working on them now.I don't think I want to fail it.
Ciao.

What on earth is plethora?
its alien!

hundred-and-five.

2009-03-22T14:01:00.000+08:00

Hi there.
Its sunday today and the weather is..pretty sunny,not really warm but still alright.
I'm at home,lazing.
Today is the last day of the week,and it is the last of the march holidays.
Tomorrow I'll be back in school facing all homework and whatever nots again.
I'm not really glad about it,really.
Homework is less than half-done and i'm still in a holiday frenzy.
..I think i need a school councilor to save my brain which is on its way to self destruction.
Its malfunction,not ready to study even though I pump it endlessly to get it started.
..Okay,not really that much pumping but I have my Chemistry test paper infront of my face and I'm not looking at it.
How about that.
I am more interested in looking through the pictures I've save this morning in a frenzy mood.
TSKTSK.
Talk to me about that.
tsktsk.
I suppose I'll die a horrible death tomorrow?
I'm not really that sure about it now.
The dictionary isn't working for me.
Or am I not allowing its function to work out efficently?
I have no idea.
I only know that if I will to not do anything but keep typing here I might just waste my time and burnt throughout the night.
tsktsk.
I need a manager.To mark my time for me.
tsktsk.
any application?

number hundred-and-four.

2009-03-19T21:30:00.000+08:00

This..is a random post.
Lately my family kept a pet.We name it Lizzy(lets just assume that its a female) and she is really loveable.She is pretty and has really smooth and nice skin.I really want to take a picture of her everytime when I see her lazing around the place but she is fast at running away from me.She doesn't like taking pictures then,I concluded after countless of fultile attempts at capturing her cute image.She has gotten herself a husband the other day and brought him home(to my family and my horror) for a couple of days.They are really sweet-looking couple,all they do everyday when I catch a glimpse of them is lazing around together and doing whatever they are doing.Well,after that I guess they fell out 'cause I didn't see her husband after a few days(to our reliefs).Glad they took precaution since I didn't find her with her offspring after he left,I was afraid that she might turn into a single-parent mother,that would be horrible you know?
tsktsk,guess what our pet is now then.

number hundred-and-three: My Love ♥

2009-03-16T23:16:00.000+08:00

Hi there.
I'm actually in the midst of doing my art.
Its getting nowhere actually.
I believe its friendship week this week,
I can't remember the acutal day actually.
I guess I do have some stuff that I would want to tell to those that I want to treasure in my heart.
I have a lot acutally.
To my dearest clique members.

i. Melissa,the monkey-lover.
Hey girl!You know what?It was great knowing you for the past one year and 3 months.I could still remember the time when I first saw you in 401.You look so quiet(its not that you are not quiet to begin with..) and alone!After knowing you better,I realise that actually,you are quite wacky and funny(not mention the fact that you are quite dorky at times).I really hope that we can remain friends like this forever and do keep the passion of loving monkeys!HAHA.

ii. Merrilyn,the hypteractive.
Heyo man!I have to say that with you around,it will never be a quiet moment to begin with.I'm not saying that you are too LOUD or anything,what I am saying that its really good to be with you.You are fun-loving and I do not have to worry anything cos' half or three-quarter of the time I would be spending on getting the laughing gas outta me!You are really a person that can't be missed out.So do hold on to your wackiness and never let go of them no matter what alright?Love you and love me back too!

iii. Claudine,the ever-motivated-to-study.
Yo there.Seeing you ever motivated to pick up the books and study or going to the extent of attending councilling to know more about yourself makes me rather remorsefull that I'm not living life to my fullest and knowing myself that way I should.Don't tell me that I'm smar without studying cos' I really ain't.Its been a pleasent time knowing you since sec 2(though I believe at that time,you and I must have dislike each other to guts.HAHA.),you are like the one of the few that I would want to find when I need help in certain stuffs(not as if I don't find the other seven though..) and you really make me feel less like a small kid(not that merrilyn has been helping me in that.).I really appreciate your presence all the time!Do remain there alright?Smiles~!

iv. Joyce,the one-not-to-traut-with.
Don't mind the title girl,its all for joke so don't poke that 'cross' on your head with the thought of giving me a tight slap.Its not good for health to be so violent you know..HAHA.Alright,I have to admit it,you are the one with my fullest admiration.You are the one that I would look for everything when something pops in my way and I have no idea what to do with it.And thank god you are always there for me when I needed you as well!I really love the fun we had for the past 2 years and 3 months and I really,really hope all this would go on and on forever.I have to say I'm sorry for all those immature things I have done all this while that upset and anger you.You would take it to heart right?Thanks for all the moments and love you!Love me back as well too!HAHA.

v. Joan,the blurest owl you could find on earth.
Hey blur queen!Don't tut me cos' everyone would say the same thing as well.HAHA!But thats your trait,everyone loves you for being so blur,so Joan!And its not really that fair that anyone as blur as you are so freaking smart.TSKTSK.HAHA.You are the one that I would be silly with,you are always there to let me play a small little trick and be too oblivous to realise about it till I tell you.Don't be so obssess with angmos man!I'll get you one for your eighteen birthday so be patient alright?HAHA.Don't sleep too late everyday alright,not good for health.Anyway,I really love your companion all this while and be there all the time alright?Smiles~!

vi. Poh Yock,the ever-messy.
Aww,yock,you know I love you to really meant the title.Thinking back,you have always been the one there for me,through thick and thin man!For all this while,thanks for all the support and trust you place in me!I really meant so much to me,nothing on earth could replace it girl!I love you,really love you.We must remain like this forever alright?You're the best. :]

vii. Qing yan,the expressionist.
You know what?I should really take a camera and snap ever different express you make everyday.I could really make a book college out of the expression you make every now and then.HAHA.You are special my friend,the girl who work her guts out everyday in school pay attention to everything and being so..innoncent(compare to all of us..you are innoncent)Its fun being with you the slient one.Make me feel that I should maybe learn to talk like you so I wouldn't irritate Joyce out.HAHA.Smile and I love you!

viii. Joanne,the JJ-lover.
I believe when you are reading this you would understand the title(I meant,who doesn't?).I really have never seen anyone like you.You have the weirdest and wildest thoughts I believe a human has,let alone a just-turned-sixteen-for-the-past-three-months teenage girl.You are queer and speaks the most alien and random things ever on earth,or in my perspective.And you are loved.By me.HAHA.Keep up alright?HAHA.I really love hanging out with you,really.

Alright,I'm glad that I've finished doing this.
Love everyone I have know and really hope all this maintains.
I'll write bout the others tomorrow.
I'm shaggggggggggg. :|

number hundred-and-two.

2009-03-15T16:27:00.000+08:00

Hi there.I'm bored..and troubled.
My art isn't going in progress.
I'm slacking big time.
And I need to get 4 transformation and 4 thumbnail exploration by tuesday.
Gosh,and i only got 1 transformation and 0 thumbnail exploration,
not mentioning that my pathetic 1 transformation is half-done as well.
tsktsk.
Can you believe it?I've gotten an A2 for art.
This is crazy.
Really.
I really want to get that for my end result.
Wonder can I get it.
Tsktsk.
Got to ciao now.
Have to get at least 3 transformation and 2 thumbnail tonight,by hook or by crook.
tsktsk.
see you soon.

number hundred-and-one.

2009-03-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

Konichiwa!
Yeah,I've got nothing better to do.
Can't find any good video convertor and its totally killing me badly.
I want to convert Super Junior's Sorry Sorry MV but then none of my convertor works since its in a flash video fomat.
Its killing me,really.

Went for a movie date with my aunt today at VivoCity.
But before that,I had meet-the-parent session today.
It was scary,really.
Mr.J just throw me with questions and alright,he did praise that I did well in my work.
I was glad.
Anyway,he talk to my mum for 15:55minutes,Joyce timed everything.
I told him that,and I know he made a face,like the way he made a face when I told him that my mother suck in his essence of speech and use it on me at home everyday.Joyce and Qingyan laughed at his expressions,but I didn't really look at him,I was busy jumping at the relief that washed over me at that moment.So yah.

We watched Suspect X today.It was really good man!I love the way it goes on about solving the case.HAHA.Though there was certain part I didn't really understand but its good,really.And the main lead looks cool,seriously.HAHA.

National Geography at Vivocity was cooler than I thought.The things inside are amazingly cool.The photographs taken in there was like..beautiful.Its so beautiful that I can't really explain it.Its intriguing,darn intriguing.
Heres one that I find its darn cool.

See?
I dunnoe what that is.
It so..capsule.
Like this people are living in that small little space.
It reminded me of futurism where people in outter space live in this kinda capsule.HAH.
And you know where this picture orginated from?
Japan.
I swear all the art-brain are from there man.
And the create the craziest thing I've ever seen in my life..so far.

Anyway,I'm ciao-ing now.
My mother deicded its best for me to go with her for her morning walk tomorrow morning.
If she has not realise,I do not have any running shoes or anything.
TSKTSK.
I shall run in my school shoes then.
Hope they don't break half-way through though.
HAHA.
Sayonara!

number one-hundred.

2009-03-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

Hey there.
I bored.
My computer decided to die on me earlier on.
It irritates me a lot,really.
And come to think of it,I was typing a lot just now.
And its all gone.
I'm soooo not going to type again.tsktsk.
Going off,I got art to work on.
4 thumbnail explorations and 4 transformations by tuesday.
God,where is my life?

number ninety-nine.

2009-03-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

Hey.
I have to mention that i'm absolutely shagged.
Art sucks my energy like nobody's buisness.
And I am going to have parent meeting on saturday.
Gosh,I'm so dead man.Imagine my mother sees my results.
I'll die like badly.
Really badly.
I think I shall go to parkway tomorrow and get more of those..I can't remember what is it.
Gosh,darn tired.
Wanted to watch Tohoshinki's Kiss The Baby Sky MV earlier on but you know what?
It was copyrighted by Avex Entertainment.
Dang.

nothing,yet.

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JEDIDAH TAN!

DON'T

ANYHOW

TAG

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